Learning and Taking The Postives

1. Took me 3 days and i am still adjusting to it. I dis-test about this feeling but it is the reality.
2. Many things could be learned and reflected on from the episode of failing to win and realizing a gap in between.
3. Ego and pride will kill me one day and i knew it from Day 1. I should be appreciative of what had happened to me over the last weekends.
4. At first i felt tired and demotivated, and after some further toxic comment from my friend and myself and i come to the conclusion that i should very well learned as much as possible from this episode of my life.
5. I am easily agitated when my idea and opinion is been questioned. Subconsciously i will be in a defense mode and not receiving new input for further improvement. That is bad, as my ego took control over me.
6. Regardless in my relationship, personal matter and work, i am in fact lacking that kind of confidence. I need to tackle on that.
7. I always trying to be truthful and honest in almost all situations which might not be the best approach in some cases. That i have to reflect again.
8. I am a good talker and easily approach by others; yet i am not those active person that will walking around actively during the function to know people. Perhaps my low self-esteem is the reason behind it.
9. I learned by observing, perhaps in most cases i will not excel at the first few times, but i can learn actively to narrow the gap and understand the requirement of striking competency and towards the excellence.
10. My mind conditioning practice is still very vague and fragile; need extra work on it.