The Road Ahead

1. I have a sight not long ago. That i am commuting to work, a new environment, colleagues, and new tasks and new challenges.
2. Everything seems so refreshing and nice until i realized it was all nothing but a dream. Nevertheless i knew it was a happy dream. To put it into a more imaginable term, its like eating a bowl of ice kacang under a dreadfully hot sun. Heaven in between but back to earth shortly after.
3. We are talking about more on the experience and qualification; the skills and knowledge. Yet, the things that truly stand out for in my opinion is the character and motivation within. The former is the qualifier but the latter is the decider. Mediocre, competent and excel.
4. The search for the road ahead starts with a clear heart and mind. Too many opportunity and options will only blur the vision so much so that everything turns to muddy condition. 
5. I am writing this to tell myself, the answer is already there, and it is from within. I just need to search and uncover it. Firstly, let's go back to ground zero ... ... 

Sickness

1. Often times we have all read about the placebo effect. How psychology play such a miracle role in curing ailment and diseases. It was only until recently that i have fall sick for a week, combo with fever, flu, and cough, i had tried many placebo treatment like herbal drink, paracetamol, isotonic drinks and Piriton. 
2. I guess it was all haywire, my body and my mind had just decided to call it a day refusing any bit of the treatment. Sickness is one of the nature weapon to stop or slow someone down. As our physical and mental ability slows down, we are make to reduce our daily activity to more rest and sleep. 
3. Of course, i hated when my output went dwindle, my brain heated when i think too much and too fast, my mind body coordination seems to be running on a 486 chips. Nevertheless, the slowness had allowed me to have more time to live my life. I tends to feel the environment more, the time that passes more, about my feeling and need for recovery, the contrasting difference of life then (healthy) and now (sick). I start to have more imagination. What if i am on my death bed? what if i am on my way of leaving this world? We are expecting to recover in a day or two; but at old age, we might just be like this and slowly loosing our very essence of life day over day until we meet our creator.
4. As we age, we learn to behave like a adult, taking up responsibilities, and be more accountable.
5. As we age, we learn to slow ourselves down, accepting things as it is, and be more open to it and stay happy.
6. As we age, we learn to accept the facts, the limitation and the very truth of life.
7. Suddenly, the pursuit of happiness meant so much implicitly but not explicitly. It is so much about inner peace and joy rather that ownership of material stuffs and titles. 
8. It is so much about been healthy and able which is already the best gift from life.