2) Its been quite some time since the last time i fall down and injuring myself. The sensation of pain, swollen knee, the wound and blood suddenly make me very alive. A sense of "Now" felt deep within me. I know some people might think i am psychopath at this point, but believe me, i just like to overthink things, that is just me.
3) Almost 8 months i am here in The Philippines. It was the longest time in my life till date that i have not met up with my family and friends. Of course at times i will be moody, i felt all alone and helpless nevertheless the 10 years i spent in Penang had definitely helped me in facing this challenge. Summing up in one word, just don't think about it.
4) I remembered the first few years when i was in Penang in year 2010, i spent quite a few Sunday night in one of the internet cafe in Chai Leng Park, checking mail, feeling myself and writing blog. Since these few years, i have not been updating blog that often. The whole purpose of maintaining a blog is to express and record my feeling and my life journey and it all stated in 2009.
5) Often times i will have some complain about the life "now", and often times i will be worried about the future, what is my life is like in the future after this phase in the PH. Worrying the future, and not living in the "Now" enough is often the mistake i made. The fall this afternoon, the wound and the pain sensation just helped to remind me again, to live the "Now".
6) With all those years spent in Penang and growing wiser in the process, i knew all too well the importance and the power of now. Just sometime i will fall back, drown in the sea of overthinking, over worrying. Nevertheless, i am glad that i can kept the consciousness and alert enough every time to keep things in check. This bleeding knee just came in a time to remind me, time is limited, cherish what we have and given.
7) Many people asked about how am i here, i often answered work is fine just life with no family and friends is a bit stressful. Indeed that is what i can summed up here. Nothing much i can do here as the Covid cases are still looming large around the world. I just kept telling myself, time will come for me to reunite with my loved one. I am here now to make me realized and learn about the importance of family and friends to me. Teaching me to cherish and appreciate life as it is. Hence, worry no more, just enjoy and appreciate life as it is.
8) With the cases in PH climbing to the region of 7k cases per day, let's pray that everyone can be safe and sound, keep their guard up. Adapting and learning the solitary life here again at different level. Nevertheless, thank god there is internet and video call at my time. Just can't imagine how earlier people kept in touch using letters. Again, i must cherish it.
