Holiday Season

1) A five days four nights trip to Chiang Mai, Thailand. This could already be my 9th time step foot into this country with two trip to Bangkok, one trip to Krabi and Koh Lipe and four trips to Sadao and Hatyai with my friends and family.

2) A very clean and well developed city of Thailand. Despite the absence of nice sandy beach, there is still many nice attraction in Chiang Mai. I like the fact that the people here is the Thais that I knew of, friendly, helpful, corteous and generous. They are people of great service value and quality. Unlike the people I knew in Bangkok, influenced and stressed out by the you-know-who bunch of tourists.

3) A sad news of missing Air Asia flight from Surabaya to Singapore gloom out visit. This would be the unforgettable year for many of us in Malaysia. Loosing three flights in a year, and many human lifes.

4) Well' it is about time to leave this place, I have a strong feeling I will be visiting this place again soon. 

5) God bless malaysia and the lost souls.

What's next ?

1) Guess there is not much time for me to stay idle? Barely more than 24hrs after my examination, this great question of mind started to ring in my mind again. What about my career path then? Where does my future lies? How am I goin to garsp whatever the future has planned out for me? 

2) The very first INTI MBA alumni gathering was held today. What a good session where we can get together, chatting around and get educated from the sharing of fellow invited speakers on entrepreneurship, career advancement, investment and most importantly what's next? What is the next big thing we fellow perceived highly educated postgraduate students have in mind?

3) I had started to ask myself about this question for quite some time and to the extend of attending interviews in the end of September and early October. Of course all this had comes to no avail. I am still blur on my quest into the future. Nevertheless, as I had concluded previously, the experience gained from these interviews was a precious one. I came to understand of my shortcomings on the insight and having a purposeful life, A dream for my own future. I came to understand that I am indeed a capable person, and I can achieve things if I can focused and continuously working hard on it. 

4) The sharing from one of the particular speaker Ms.Jeanne Ooi had rather trigger my brain cells about the questions on future again. She questioned about our dream, our version of purposeful life, some strong words from Martin Luther King: I had a dream. The idea of doing great things in life lies on the foundation of loving what we do In life came alive once more. Compromising might be an option here. Nevertheless, we only live once, and don't we all deserve to have a great life ? And for this, we owe it to ourselves, to achieve the multiple highs in life.

5) What a great wake up call, at such a perfect timing (during semester break). Clearly I know how to keep myself busy. Final year project, future, and future, oh ya, yes, and my dream. 

A nice Christmas tree, and Christmas song playing in Starbucks Borders, Queensbay Mall. Holiday and festive season around the corner. Time for family, friends and myself.

Significant or not Significant?

Same Word Puzzle been looked from different angle. Multi-perspective nature of everything.

1. Last Saturday was the last class for Statistics and Decision Analysis. Our group presentation was well received from both the lecturer Mr. Goh Chok Huat and visiting lecturer Dr. Ch'ng. This will be the last group assignment with my fellow group members, Allan, Rexie and Sia as after this we will be attending different subjects and then the final dissertation. We had worked together for many times for different subjects. Despite having a lot of comment and request from me, i am grateful for their understanding and the hard work put up all this while.
2. A great transformation had actually began at the beginning of the year, since the Strategic Management class under Dr. Lee; followed by Business Research Methods class under Dr. Janaka and now the Statistics and Decision Analysis class by Mr. Goh. From someone who knew nothing about research, the philosophical background of research, the research design, the measurements of research variables, the validity and reliability as well as hypothesis testing to someone who now can discuss and evaluate research paper. To my amusement, i thought that is quite a transformation process.
3. I can now know the difference between criticize and been critique to something or some matter. Tends to critically analyze some paper and appreciate the way things are carry out and enjoy how perfect things are seamlessly crafted in such a perfect manner.
4. Things are changing, or rather i would said that the way i look and evaluate things are changing. The photo attached with this blog post is one of the many mini games we played in the last Stats class. A simple word puzzle that will display different sentences if it is looked at different angle. I have to record this on purpose to remind me to look at things from multiple angle and perspectives. Good or Bad, happy or sad, successful or failure, black or white, right or wrong, it is down to the very angle or perspective we adopted to evaluate the situation and condition.
5. Things are design in such a way naturally and Taoism had already provided a structure to evaluate the nature using the Yin and Yang concept. Great wisdom from the ancient time that most of the people in today's world who pursue instant gratification failed to appreciate and understand. 
6. I am enjoying my learning process very much now. I can see and felt the changes it brought to my life. I can see the progress that i wanted when i first sign up for this programme. More to come? I hope so.

红白事;百感交集

1. 2015年11月的我百感交集。
2. 红事: 十月尾是我大学好友的结婚典礼, 就在当天我就收到三位大学朋友的邀约。早上就到马六甲祝贺第一对新婚夫妇, 夜晚先到PJ的一场祝贺第二对然后到Bangsar参加第三对新婚夫妇的晚宴。大学的同窗,室友,学长,学弟妹齐聚一堂。宴会后到以前常去的CIMB Mamak档喝茶谈天。CIMB现在关了，Mamak档还在。回忆一幕幕的在脑海里播映起来。生命是可喜可贺的。
3. 红事: 十一月头，小学的两位朋友结婚, 新郎与新娘与我人生有过很多的共同点。小学,三间中学以及大学。宴会当天是星期天, 疯狂的我就从槟城三点下午就翘课驱车到吉隆坡。 当晚我可忙得不可开交。好多许久都没碰面的老朋友聚在一起好不快活。11点晚上才驱车回槟城.这一趟可是非常的值得,没有后悔。生命里的种种回忆记录了许多成长过程的酸甜苦辣。
4. 红事: 十一月尾，又多一位大学好友在柔佛麻坡结婚请宴。又多一次相聚的机会。生命是充满着期望与对未来的展望。
5. 白事：这一个月接到了许多恶讯。每天在我上班前与我招手的Security Guard，每天帮我捧面的uncle，朋友的父亲都一一的离去。生命的短暂在这一刻显露无疑。
6. 两个星期前，我的同事不幸罹难。虽然在一场交通意外大难不死；但在脑部手术后依然昏迷不醒。生命是短暂的。
7. 这一切的心情记录，对生活的感觉与本身的价值观深深的被这一切的红白事所影响。
8. 这一切都告诉我，活在当下的重要性，活出自我，不留白，不后悔。
9. 这一切都告诉我，珍惜当下的重要性，超越自我，不固执，不贪恋。

Seaview Starbucks

1) It will be real nice to have a cup of coffee by the seaside, the wind, the scenery, together with aroma of my drink, blend in together naturally.

2) Straits Quay used to be the only place but I couldn't visit it frequently as the location is quite a distance from my house.

3) Until recently, I recalled there is this double storey sbux located at Sri Penang , just few minutes of drive across the bridge. Strategically located, and way nearer to mainland.

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5) I could enjoy the sea view, with the sight on Penang bridge, embracing the wind, just like how every holiday should be. A good relaxing area. The sight of aircraft flying up the altitude, from the nearby Penang International Airport adds to the breathtaking scene I am enjoying now.

6) I believe everyone aspires to achive great things in life. I believe that by working hard and with a good heart, we can achieve what we set for. I believe that we owe it to ourselves to do ourselves justice, not only to grow and establish ourselves but also contributing back to the society and people in needs.

7) As I am writing this, the wind grew stronger, the shade is vibrating with metal clicking sound. How the aircraft set flying up to the sky is one of the many great human invention. For me, I sees freedom, I sees unlimited potential. I foreseen the effort behind to make the flight a safe and success one, I foreseen the utmost critical preparation work to ensure the condition of the plane.

8) As the saying of the word "good luck" one has to be good to enjoy the luck. 

9) I will need a focus mind, a focus soul, a focus effort; at this junction of life, I pray for god's blessing to give me the courage and faith to carry on what I had started off, embracing the up-coming challenges and difficulties that may arise.

毕业典礼

1）对，这并不是我的毕业典礼。对，这也不是我弟妹的。错，她不是我的女友。

2）别问我为什么到来，是否是一件愚昧的事，或是天真加白痴的举动。只知道当下的决定是一种呼唤，没有别的，就觉得应该要来。

3）掌声响起，毕业生呼喊的那一刹那，内心也立刻被这充满生命力与希望的呐喊感到莫名的感触。曾几何时自己也那么的年轻过，谈梦想，期望，种种的未来憧憬。

4）回过头想了想，察觉自己就已经那样的过了29个年头。生日快乐，我告诉我自己。还有什么没做到的，还有什么要去改变与争取的，还有遗憾吗？接下来的日子里就希望不再留白。

5）感谢帮助我，关心我，鼓励我的你们，感谢其他在我生命留下脚步与我生活交叉过的你们，无伦好坏，是非，一切都成就了今天的我。这是我生命里的一部分，不能对换忘记的一部分。

6）是的，下一站的旅程即将开始。是的，我内心是又激动又担心。不，我不会裹足不前，反而是更勇敢的向前迈进。逆水行舟不进则退。

7）与大家共勉之。

Interview - Interview

1) The title of this blog suggested firstly on the interviews that I had attended, notice of the use of kata ganda here. It's nothing short of crazy that it is well over 5years ago since I last attended interview.

2) I was surprisingly nervous as my friend kept reminded me that I have nothing to loose. It felt like a mid age uncle desperates for job.

3) Things are all surpringly well too. The arrangement of the interviews, friends that offered help, the timing, the traffic and even less call from Sony. To my surprise only one call recorded from Sony.

4) Perhaps it's the training from my uncle and perhaps it's the learning from MBA and perhaps it's both that had helped me on these interviews. I can critically answered, evaluate and give good response to the inquiry from interviewers. My working experience was a faithful support to me.

5) Finally it is down to searching my career growth in the sales sector or pursue financial sector. Both needed great work from then on. So climbing the corporate ladder? Or embrace the lucrative financial world.

6) What do I really want? What kind of future do I want to paint? Happy, family, job statisfaction? Work life balance? Lots and lots of money? A good relook again into this is very much needed now as I am at the cross road.

7) I kept my interviews as a secret from my parents as I wish to reduce any possible complication arise from me leaving my uncle's company which may involved my mom and dad in the picture.

8) I am truly grateful to be surrounded with very very good friends who support me giving me advices all this while. I am thinking perhaps this are the fruits that I gained from all the good seeds I sore all this while. By giving out we actually do receive more in return. Of course one can always argue that this is not always true but at least it is true for me during the time I needed it most.

9) At the age of 25 I moved to Penang, one of my biggest decision, at the age of 27 I bought my first house, at the age of 28 I talked myself over to take up postgrads studies, and I hope at the age of 30 will be a new, meaningful, purposed life from then on.

10) life is short, Life is fragile, life is unpredictable, life is life. So tell me, why do I need to be too sad or too worry over something? That's life

A Weekend to be remembered ??

1. After such a long time, finally i met up with her again in sbux. Nearly 4 months since we last met and i hope our next meeting can arrive sooner. Catching up on the events happened over the last few months, setting our sight on the near future. She will be continuing her study in KL and i hope that i can return to KL for good. It surely feels good to have her as company.
2. It must be the food poisoning that caused me fever on that friday night. Clearly, that sleepless night and food poisioning had cost my night. Depriving from sleep and rest, under some medication, i off for my first class of the semester. First class is always torturing, attention level was low, momentum was low too. With the combination of lacking proper rest the night before, yes, it was all torturing.
3. Nevertheless, the feel good feeling from yesterday meeting fuel me up. The news i am about to tell here is also a huge morale boost for me. I was given the second highest score (78/100) for Business Research Methods by Dr. Janaka. It is a very good recognition and a well received morale support for me. I worked really hard to finish this proposal, reading more than 70-80 journals, refining my thoughts and ideas on the proposal and with good effort i had completed it. Really a good morale boost for me.
4. Received email from Marketing Management lecturer on the assignments. It is very challenging and i like this challenge. Providing marketing strategy for Sony phone. I hope i can score this as well.
5. With hope and expectations, life become more meaningful, although sometime it works the other way round. For this part, i hope for a much better future.

4th Anniversary in Penang= # merdeka #Langkawi+Penang # Oldfriends

1. In conjunction with my 4th anniversary in Penang, i had organized a trip with my old secondary school friends to Langkawi+Penang. Nearly 10 years ago we had a trip to Genting and now we are heading to Langkawi.
2. The most important things about this trip is the valuable time spend that we spent together. It's been so long since we last eat, play and joke together. We shared about our work, current life, the future in sight and also the problem we faced. 
3. We make jokes out of each other with no hard feelings, and obviously i am the one who started it most of the time, well, it is hard to get this bunch of old friends where we speak our heart out with no hesitation.
4. I managed to catch up with them again during my trip back to KL this time. We had supper in Asia Cafe and play the old school computer game together. Good time spent... recalling those halcyon days in the past.
5. I do hope this can be maintain and carry on for sometime to come.

Fourth Years Anniversary

1) I realized some of the most memorable day in my life happened during the festive seasons. Let see, i could recalled, I got my house key during Valentine's day, and I moved in to my new house during the labour day.

2) My first ever confession was on Valentines's day in year 2009, haha and my second confession to another girl was two days before the Malaysia Independence Day. 

3) I moved to Penang on the eve of Merdeka in year 2010 and started to work immediately the day after this historical day. It's been such a long time, a journey of 4 years in Penang.

4) I would say I had adapted quite well, embracing the way of life of fellow Penangites, simple, friendly and very good hospitality are some the important values they had incorporated in their life. They valued the relationship between one and another, appreciate the common good for everyone and they always wanted a better Malaysia. By saying all this, I am not referring that people originated from other statespossess any inferior aspects in their way of life. The purpose of explaining the way how Penangites live is one of the way for me to appreciate the incidents, things and people that had bumped into my life over the 4 years period.

5) As much as I like Perak (place that I was borned), Johor (place that I grown up), Selangor &KL (place where I spent in my teenage years), Sabah (place that I traveled quite frequent in my second job), and Penang (place I spend my young adulthood), Penang could be one of my favorite for the people, culture, food, historical places and the life style. ( duration of time spent In each states from Perak 6 years, Johor 5 years, Selangor and KL14years, Sabah 2 months, Penang 4years and still counting).

6) So with the calculation above, clearly the add up of all the years are my age now. I had learned to grow, and control my own life except the part on my weight. haha.

7) The self discovery process had never stopped since the Basic Training from AsiaWorks 6 years ago. I learned about my ever changing needs and wants, and also the basic meaning of happiness for me. I have learned to appreciate the little happiness in my life, the people, things and event happened around me. I appreciated many more things that had happened been good or bad as I know it is all part of my life. I understand that life is always filled with surprises in both positive and negative ways, and knew that I can only adjust myself to the environment but not the other way round. I embrace the challenges and difficulties and at the same time enjoy the fruit of success from all the hard work and labour. I have anxiety towards my future but at the same time I worked hard as much as I could and pray for blessing from god. I have come far enough but it is only a small few steps in my life.

8) My sight is set for a better future and greater heights for personal growth as well as my relationship with my family and future life partner who is still unknown till date.

9) I enjoyed mylife now and I am excited for the future that I might embark into. Thank you to my family members and my friends, and people from all walks of my life who encourages me, giving me a lift, inspiring me and gave me a chance to whatever privilege I am enjoying now. 

10) Above is part of my keynote message to my 4th Anniversary in Penang. Following post will be on the trip with my old friends to Langkawi and Penang during the holiday.

About Life

1. The title of this blog is rather philosophical, it's about life.
2. I am not going to type a blog post that takes hours to type and to read it.
3. It suppose to take approximately 5 minutes or so, simple and direct approach. This is the exact same concept applied to Life, simple and direct approach.
4. The single biggest problem in life is we failed to understand ourselves. Firstly, we have a very low awareness of our needs and wants, our ability and limits, our likes and dislikes. Sound pretty funny right? This is the very true fact because we always seems lost when we face with problem. Things got more complicated when the environment factors take it roles in all the challenges in life.
5. We cannot control the environment factors, only can we control our inner self. This is the single and most effective way to contain the challenges and also our limitless capacity to face challenges. 
6. By having high self-awareness, we will be surprise by our own ability and capability to achieve things, working on the life challenges, and going through all the highs and lows. As the very basic human nature is we can learn, change and adapt by observing, analyzing, experiencing and testing it. This is the fundamental of human civilization. 
7. So life is simple when we maintain a high self-awareness. 
8. So life is simple when we are clear of our wants and needs.
9. So life is simple when we are challenged and facing a dilemma we know the outcome we desired and the solution we will be choosing over.
10. So life is simple when we really think that it is that simple.
11. So this is about life.

Exam Season

1) After completing Managing Organization paper yesterday morning, today will be the time for the second paper, Corporate Finance.

2) Surprisingly, I am actually quite relaxed over this few days, playing game, study, playing game and study. I guess this is the way for me to relax myself. We cannot be studying 24/7 right? Haha

3) Let's just hope I can beat the odds can score solid A for both subjects althought It requires me to score 80/100 to get an A. Sound tough but, no harm trying.

4) Time flies, as 2/3 of 2014 ending soon as my MBA journey is also in 2/3 to completion. I just hope things will get better and more fruitful for me.

5) Last Thursday I had received an opportunity to interview for Accounting Manager post in one of the well known MNC. It's an honor for me actually, at least that speaks about the perceived quality I have now. Well up I used the word perceived as my true quality will require me to prove when the trying time comes.

6) Aftrer this week, I will be having some short vacation with my old friends from Subang , and follow by form 6 friends wedding dinner. Many gatherings to attend. A good way to recharge myself for the challenge next semester and also from my work.

7) Ok. Will be traveling to college soon, have a lunch, and go through my notes one more round before taking on the final exam. I like the corporate finance paper, not because it is easy, but because it is dealing with mathematics where my Maths skill is bit rusty now. Good to repo list again now.

Expectations

1. In this post, let's focus on the word expectation. 
2. It's always good, people once said, to have expectation in life, the life we want to lead, the kind of relationship and to what extend we want it to be, the quality of our life etc ... ...
3. Always we felt that, expectation is something keep us going, picking up the challenges in life, handling it and overcome it, so that we may grow, gaining knowledge and experience and at the same time, leading the kind of life we wanted, according to our expectation.
4. Another scenario comes into play where having expectation can be too heavy for us. Having high expectations at times will be dragging us, causing depression, stress and even lead to some unwanted incidents. We may not realized that our expectation is too high for ourselves, by comparing with our peers and maybe our previous self, we may realized that our expectations could be too high to be achieved at all.
5. So expectations can be a double edge sword. How it going to affect us is very much depended on how we are using it. Having expectation is good as it will drive us to go forward, but having too much expectations will be killing us without us realizing it. 
6. A simple theory and yet when we are stuck in such a conundrum, we can just never figure it through.
7. The trigger point for my posting and this topic is related to my studies. Out of expectations, i am the highest scorer among all the 24 or so students. Never been it run through my mind that i can be the top scorer for Managing Organization. 
8. On the other hand, i am not the top scorer for my another class called Corporate Finance. What a shame that as i was expecting myself to be scoring for that subject.
9. Nevertheless, both paper left last part which is the final examination to be completed. I need to gather myself and make sure that i will ace these exams.
10. OK, let's get prepared. For the exams and the holidays after this.

Ending of 4th Semester

1. My second year in MBA, the 4th semester is soon to be over soon. 3 more assignments due by coming two weeks. After that, it will be the exam week. Things will be happening real fast from now onwards.
2. I have to take three subjects this semester as one of the key subject will not be offering next semester, and this might affect my graduation plan. The journey so far in this path of MBA is some what rewarding. Yes it is really a difficult one, juggling between, life, work and assignments. The harder part will be either we want to excel at all three areas, or compromise on either one.
3. Never in my life i had produced so much of masterpiece other than blogging. Every subjects we need to at least finish 2 assignments and package with a final exam or multiple test. 
4. Today after MO individual assignment presentation, i am glad that lecturer buy my ideas of doing things and i am been awarded the highest presentation mark for the day. Now i am waiting the class to end and getting myself ready later to return to KL for this festive holiday.
5. I am glad to have chosen finance as my majoring and now i need to seriously considering this as  my future career path. This will be my main quest after this semester ends, and i will have around 2 weeks to ponder about this.
6. Honestly i am looking forward for new challenges soon, what's next for me ? that's the question.
7. By the way, my company trip this year end will be travelling to ChiangMai and ChiangRai Thailand. I think it will be a fun one as i drag along my parents to join this trip.
8. It's always good to have good future expectation. :-)
9. Need to work hard now for the balance assignments and exam preparation.

A New Beginning?!?!

1) There will be instances in life where we hope to have a fresh start, a new beginning, or perhaps in certain situations; we wish for a second chance or a redemption.

2) Perhaps there are certain things that we felt should be handled in much better ways, situation and circumstances that we deal with and the people we meet and contact with. There are surely a room for improment, some distance away from the perfecto or idealistic conclusion that we desired. We called this a gap.

3) Hence, we seek for a new start from somewhere, at some time, with some people, dealing with some situation, meeting up some challenges, and hoping to achive something, somehow or rather.

4) Without a new start, can we be as successful as we wish? Abandoned the unwanted memory and indulge ourselves in new environments, embracing the perceived brighter future.

5) The ability of human to remember what we have experienced and witnessed especially important for the intellectual development of fellow Homo sapiens.

6) To be able to grow and continue learning, to help us to extend our self-discovery journey and avoiding the previous mistake; we need to pick up the lessons from our past and present life. Kept wanting a new start might not be the broad spectrum drug here to cure us from all kind of bad dilemma and dejavu we had. 

7) We have to analyzed and then summarized, finally conclude our findings and lesson; so knowledge can be formed and this will drive us far in our life.

8) and so, for the next chapter, we all will be more equipped and ready to embrace the challenges. With that we hope things will be favorable and the gap is reduced.

9) Life is an encyclopedia that had limitless boundaries, possibilities and knowledge for us to explore and owing to the dynamic nature of our life, we will surprise with our findings each time.

Coffee Lunch

1) My programmes over the weekends eventually becoming more like a routine now. If there's no class, I will be loitering around Inti's library or Starbucks. Doing assignments, reading journals 

, looking for food to eat or reading magazines or news.

2) At times, just feeling like breaking the routine doing something different. Albeit the main agenda is still the same, which is attending classes and completing assignments; but I just wish to experience something new.

3) Today will be a normal Saturday where I went to Inti's library and after doing some read up and some assignment on Hartalega IPO; here I am at all season place at air itam. I have read about this coffee house called coffee element sometime ago; open by ex-engineers.

4)I had a cup of my usual favorite latte. The taste are alright, just the temperature is not as hot as i wanted. There's a latte art on top of the drink which is a standout among sbux n coffee beans.

5) I like the quiet environment here not as crowded and commercialized like the former two. Although there's limited power point here but I felt this is a good place for readng and gathering. Plus there's many eatery around. I think it will be a nice place to visit again next time around.

6) This cup of latte reminds me of the Jamaica latte I had in star complex Singapore and latte from Marco cafe in Taman Sutera Johor.

7) The memory of coffe+holiday ; like the coffee I had in Cambodia while enjoying the Mekong river.

Life can be just so simple and relaxing at times.

Next Station

1. It's been a year already that i had started to embark on this postgraduate degree. It's undeniable about the new knowledge, greater exposure, and wider horizon gained from embarking this journey. 
2. At times, i will wondered about what all these will be translated in terms of my career and my life as a whole. The urge of quitting my job getting stronger as the days gone by. It's of a question of where rather than when. 
3. The next station is the title of this blog. What's next for me? New responsibility, new job scope, new environment and new challenges. I believe these are the motivating factors for me to keep moving on. 
4. Obviously i hope that the next station will have a better scenery and nicer people to meet and work with; I hope i can further established myself, job satisfaction and acknowledgment are also the main things i am looking for other than the dollars.
5. What will it be? Who i will become? What will be my future lies with ? Will i have a better life than what i have now ? Freedom, Accomplishment, fulfillment, contended and in my wildest dream, to be happy.
6. I know daydream do not get me far. I should remind myself to continue my preparation, equipped myself with the necessaries and wait for the right chance and right timing. 
7. And i start to wonder again; the right time and right chance ... ... so i remind myself once more ... stay calm and get prepared.

Calm Before Storm

1) Suppose to have class this Saturday and the class was rescheduled and so there's an extra free weekends for me. I was trying to go to places where I seldom patron. At the end, after borrowing a book from Inti Library and chatting with the MBA clerk; I had some food near the masjid Negeri street hawkers and now end up in the Starbucks of Burma Road in New World Park.

2) Life without assignment and revision, I wonder how do I manage to waste my time previously, especially the weekends and weekdays. I spend every night on the last weekdays watching movies and Running Man; this weekends, I plan to do some pre-revision hence I went to Library to borrow a book on Corporate Finance. Haha, I really wonder how much will I be reading after all. Maybe this is just to help me felt less guilty.

3) There are a few youngsters here siting alone in one corner, paying attention to their work, well I guess it will be some kind of home works or assignments. Hmm...soon it will be my turn and this time it will be something really intense as I will be taking three subjects in this upcoming semesters. Other then the exceptional amount of work, my wallet is also bleeding as it cost me RM7k ++ to pay for three subjects.

4) I have some sort of figuring out the problem that I had since the turn of the year. It was the dissatisfaction and stress yield from my job that causes so much of unrest and tension within me. It is purely not money or pay oriented, it is more about satisfaction and job fulfillment, which I am lacking, No offense I realize that I am working with a bunch of animals, as their modus operandi is always about picking up fight, threatening, scolding and provoking other people. I truly agree that everyone born with a kind and good heart and I agrees that stresses and pressure from life will alter our atitudes and characters. 

5) We cannot put fire to fire and channeling all the negativity around the company although we know that the pressure receives is unbearable at times. The failure to use our wisdom and experience to handle such situations will only cause the people around us and ourselves in a never ending bad cycles, like the law of kharma.

6) A fresh start is imminent, and the question now is on the timing and seizing the opportunity. Currently I am not open up to the opportunity as I think that the timing is not right yet. Soon that I will start to seize the wide opportunity out there and I hope that I can do myself justice and prove my worth  when the time has come.

7) Tomorrow is Mother 's Day , one of the most widely celebrated event over the world. As I am getting older and wiser, I started to understand more on the sacrifices my mom and dad had made for all of us. They had sacrifice their dream, their time and so much of love was pour down to us to ensure that we grow up happily and healthy. Wishing us to have a good career and life is always their dream and prayer for us. We can just never repay them enough.

8) Family is one special unit in the society, and it is build on love which is hardly describe and explain precisely by words. In conjunction with the Mother's Day I wish both my parents happy retiring and may they are blessed with good health and happiness. It is a bit regret as I could not return home for celebration but I am expecting to have a holiday break with them during the festive break in the month of July.

Memory of The Land of Borneo

1) Ironically every moments, experience, the people and the place has their lapses in life. Often times we felt that the sweet and good one ended too quickly whereas the bitter and bad one takes forever to finish.

2) This trip to KK Sabah is a good recall on my previous Sabah experience. The good Malaysians spirit whereby people do not really judge you by skin colors, the warm welcome by the locals,the seafood, and local delights.

3) A good trip with my friends, Sharon and YeeChing, who both renamed after Judy and Julie by me for no apparent reasons. The plane bound to Penang is calling for boarding now. I shall resume blogging.

4) The two crew on board started to talk in Hokkien between them. To my surprise I felt warm and felt at home instantly as I overheard the hokkien; How adaptive is human as I am a HockChew, raised up in an mandarin and Cantonese speaking community and now I am fairly relate and associate myself with Hokkien dialect.

5) This Sabah trip was as significant as the trip to Singapore back then in last December. Precious outing with my two good friend. I ought to say there's some changes to all of us as compared with their trip down to Penang two years ago. Of course there bound to be, each of us are developing and venturing to new things in life, gaining life experiences as we kept on discovering and shaping our true self.

6) One will be naive to think that there 's actually anything that can last forever both quantitatively and qualitatively. Yet, there are these things called memory which will actually last as long as one could remember it. A long lasting memory requires something with significant impact to create certain degree of chemical reaction for a strong creation memory, things like a bad experiences with theft or robbery, the moment of receiving present, loosing the loves one or proposing to someone we love. All these bound to be the moment be it good or bad that we can hardly forget.

7) Again, the whole purpose of writing down these details especially on the feeling is to help me remember it. 

8) Judy had started her new life, I can see she immersed herself in her new relationship. Although I have never told her how well I wish her, but god has open up a much wider door for her. I pray for her happiness for the future to come. She had maintained her kind heart and her preserverence on the good things in life is all inspiring. I think she definitely had thrived really hard, as much and as hard as possible with the help from God to face the challenges and letting go her past while not comprising on things that she believe in. 

9) Julie shared her shocking cross country , or a much appropriate term to use is the cyber-dating relationship which ended recently. She had gained enormously from this relationship such as believing the unbelievable and of course leanrning and venturing a different self who brace uncertainty and believe in infinite capability as she had showed on handling the relationship and her challenges now in Sabah. It's not easy as I observered but she had proven especially to her old self. She is there to outbeat and set new personal records.

10) The memory of snorkeling in Manukan Island, starbucking in Central Plaza, two movies session i.e. Spider man 2 and Brick mansion, the Kundasang mountain retreat, and the sunset in Tanjung Aru. 

11) I am glad to be able to catch up with them. I knew my problem, my dilemma, and the challenges ahead. I had tried my best to enjoy this trip as much as possible and yet there's a regret that things are just keep on playing in my mind and I know I have to face it no matter what. 

12) Where and when can me have such a trip again...times are ticking ... We can only cherish the moment.

The Long Awaited Holiday

1) Finally the long awaited holiday... ... In LCCT now awaiting flight bound to Kota Kinabalu. My mom and Dad dropped me here. Well it might be something normal for many people but it brought special meaning for me. It is never a usual scenario where both my parents can send me off as before their retirement, either one of them have to take care of the coffee shop and most probably I will be taking public transport or get a leave from my friend.

2) First I would like to recap a bit regarding my final exam. Two paper in a day, one in the morning another in the afternoon; it wasn't that easy actually but I know I can handle it with the experience from STPM. Crazy thing actually, to write continuously for two hours for 12pages. Two paper in a day and that is a total of 24pages. 

3) The first blue pen I bought a sentimental value pen, run out of ink after writing for 3 pages, my spare pen also wanna retired after another 7pages of writing. My hand start aching actually as I am writing the second page of my second paper. Now, you really call it write till your hand sore. There's no time to stop and think actually, I just have to write and write and write. Honestly , to write 12 pages in 120mins , I means that 10minutes per page, I thought that is the maximum speed for now. If I was to write 14pages,  it means that there is 8.57 mins per page; possible but the brain and hand sync need to be really great.

4) The last time I returned to Subang was during the CNY holiday; Nearly 3months ago. My priority is always to stay at home as much as possible. Well of course I also tried to meet a few of my friends, like Chee Jian, Chua, Mel, Eeleen, Jan, Zhang Xin and Suria. Mission very much accomplished. I would say I really miss home. It's almost four years that I had left KL; I am planning to transfer back to KL for good, the questions here is only left with when and what. When refers to the timing and What refers to the job and field that will be lining up next for me.

5) Seeing my parents growing older day by day, I was thinking that it is important for me to stay with them, perhaps not physically staying together but to be able to visit them more often. Big questions that I have there but planning ahead is essential to see things thru smoothly and accordingly.

6) Next semester which is going to start immediately the week after, I will be taking three modules. Of course there's question on the ability to handle it. I guess that will be the challenge then; the fight still has to go on.

7) Supposed to touch down at 530pm later, the last I came Sabah will be three and a half years ago. Time really fly passed without us realizing it. Hence, I always would like to remind myself to cherish the present, moment spend with mom and dad, friends, studies, working; be it good or bad, sweet, sour or bitter experience; it will be part of me, my life and the details of my journey. Leaves no regret.

8) Let's enjoy the balance of my holiday before another round of stiff challenge.

#Rainbow #Assignment #MyBrain #Liverpool #Angel

1) As I was wondering its been a while since I last witnessed the wonder of nature aka the rainbow; again god must have suddenly remembers me; sending this for me as I am half rushing through the hell lot of assignments and workload.

2) I was on my way back and turning into Permatang Pauh area to look for the binding shop; and there is this rainbow showing the sign of faith and Hope for me... I was shouting like a mad person in the car, out of excitement, perhaps it was an act of stress relieving for me. I felt really good after that.

3) Finally the assignments called for a halt, and now it will be studying and exam preparation mode. To my surprise, I had received a tremendous good news where my scholarship was approved by the ministry of education, amounting RM10K under the programme called MyBrain15. Indeed, this has seriously ease my financial burden and of course I am happy with this aid and couldn't have come in a better time. After a week of preparing necessary documents, looking for witnesses, guarantors and certifying documents, and the agreements were stamped duty was paid and delivered out by courier today, all within a week.

4) Yesterday was a massive game for Liverpool, the decider game, show down with Man City... It all seems like a roller coaster ride, up and down and up again, scoring 2 goals conceded another 2 in second half and finally Coutinho sealed the victory for Liverpool. What a game, what a game...this is not meant for the one with weak heart. I was so touched and nearly cried at the same time; witnessing the efforts made by fellow players, Sterling goal, Gerrard passionate drive and Coutinho remarkable winner. The roar and chants of the fans in L4, heaven shaking singing of YNWA, god knows that Liverpool can no longer wait after 24years. Gerrard was reduced to tears after the final whistle, gathered his fellow teammates and telling them to march to Norwich next. The spirit of the captain,the players and the coach, will go down well in the history. A title will be needed to let this remarkable run ends well.

5) Exactly a month past since I last met angel. The meeting was arranged so that I can shared the famous Japanese choc with her. We had shared many discussion, opinions and thoughts on studies, working life and also the journey of self development. I thought it was a good gathering, I cherish such session and appreciated her to spend sometime with old man like me.

6)Since it is a happening here. What's up next??

7) Exams, Hometown-been ages (around 3months) since I last returned to Subang, Sabah Trip with my two friend from zoo-Giraffe n Turtle, New Semester (finally Corporate Finance next sem), maybe a short trip to Kulai to bid farewell to Tim, and finally perhaps it's time to plan for my final year project and next challenge in term of career advancement.

Assignment-High Season Now

1) Already been doing assignment for two weeks already. When I said doing is really literally means doing it everyday and for few hours. Weekends will be worst...it nearly take whole days...

2) Always wonder why I cannot make it a habit of working consistently without rushing for last minutes...

3) This subject strategic management and the high standards set by lecturer had seriously tested my capability and potential to the max. Working and studying part time, I do not know it will be this tough until this instances

4) Short words here...for the record...

5) Continue my assignment now.

The RIGHT Things In Life

1) We are taught to always do the right things in life. We should be kind and generous, we should help the people in need, we ought to responsible in our action and the reaction of our action.

2) The recents SAR ( Search and Rescue) efforts joined force by more than 26 countries for the missing MH370 had very much display such noble spirits in mankind history. It is all heart-warmed when we receive confirmation from different leaders of different countries pledging of their commitment and thoughts on this SAR.

3) There's once, one of my best friend Brendon told me, with good thoughts and good deeds, good things will surely turn out somehow. It was actually a stunner for me, I mean for him to throw out such heavy words, and been so judgemental that the end result will be in such a manner. Few years had passed since I last heard of him, but his words I am taking it deep and clear in my mind.

4) Let us pray that good things will turn out very soon.

5) As a students with scientific background, it was well rooted in me to think and analyse things scientifically. It is nothing great, as the word science means knowledge literary from Latin scientia. It is a systematic ways of gathering information, analyses, formulate and further tested for its validity and finally product as a knowledge. 

6) I would like to relate some events of life with some of the great scientific laws that I had learned. The first one will be from thermodynamic where it stated that entry cannot be created or destroyed, we can only change the form of it. Imagine the amount of energy been transferred and converted each day, from sunlight to the plants,to the animal, and to us as food. These energy manifest to more minute ways such as allowing move around, and speak to each other. These energies then further converted into thoughts and speeches which in turns creat feelings, and memories.

7) The third motion law of Newton,s law stated that with every action, there's always a reaction of the same magnitude. Such simple statement is very powerful and postulated into laws as it's coming from Sir Isaac Newton.

8) The discussion that I would like to put forward here is that our daily actions and thoughts is a form of energy which can be manifest and transfer to other people. it is very powerful without us realiziing it. Based on the two laws discussed above, this is non-destructible and will surely cause an equal reaction in return.

9) We, especially the youngsters had mis-used this energy, to create many problems and issues to our family members, friends and society at large. Many are just not considerate enough and been too ignorance to care for others. Bad energy created will cause a big turmoils as it is non destructible and will generate an equal magnitude of bad reaction like putting fire to fire.

10) Yes, we had failed to weather the consequences of our action. It is a high time for us to re-think of our action and thoughts daily.

11) Imagine if we channel all this energy for something which yields common good to everyone, imagine the positive enery spreading all around and manifest along the chain, just imagine the sweet taste of the fruit of good deeds.

12) This is what we are lacking in our society.

13) I have to always remind myself to keep a positive mind, and be careful with how I interact with others as I do not want bad karma to be recycled over and over again.

14) My third semester is ending soon, with few assignments due end of this month and two final paper at the end of April. The focus is clear, I need to follow through. One encouragement I received is on my previous semester result. Unofficial result indicated that I had scored A+ (points 90 and above) for my Business economics and an A (points 80 and above) for my Managing Information Systems. This is definitely a good boost for me.

15) I need to continue to stay focus on the not urgent but important issues ( studies, health,well 

 Being) in my life, other than the important and urgent stuff ( work and work and work).

16) Limitless Life, Limitless Boundaries

Have Faith ... Don't Ever Loose Hope

1) There are a few incidents occured that had contributed to this post. Let's us begin with something bigger, something which bring much significance.

2) It's been 10days since we last heard of MH370 flight. Never in my life I can remembered or pay so much attention to a particular flight number. This is no ordinary flight where a history is already in-making. The flight bound from KL to Beijing carrying 239passengers were lost, just like that with no news at all till date.

3) Unbelievable as it may sound but yet it is happening now despite the advancement of tracking, reporting technology, long and tedious safety precaution and measures which are undone by this incident.

4) Conflicting news and information from the press, from MAS, from irresponsible social group which adds on with desperate and emotional family members had done no good to the whole situation. It's a pity to see the family and friends of the victims in grieve. Human nature at the soft side. No one deserve to go though such tormented experience, no one.

5) With latest updates where the plane might be deliberately been cutoff from radar and flew for another 7 hours, it's a real shocker. Yet, there's still no concrete news for the grieving souls. Praying is the only option for now. May god have mercy on them.

Have faith~ don't ever loose hope

6) Next up, is a story of a 29years old man. Story is broken up into two installment. The first is about the future expectation. Maybe it's like a seasonal, or cyclical thing, and this time around and particularly at this age, he tends to wonder a lot about his future, career, life and family-wise. 

7) He's wondering whether what he is doing are right or not? Will it bear fruitful outcome? Possible to look for other best alternatives? It was just questions after another questions. 

8) And so, with no answer to be found, he told himself to stay firm on his plan, work it out, with all his will and might. Something good will surely turn up, maybe just that something he's looking for all this while.

Have faith~ don't ever loose hope

9) The second installment of the story again about this 29years old man, it is about his personal life. After such a long time and he met this young, outspoken and friendly girl. He is definitely overwhelm by the play of fate which allows him to bump into her. 

10) This man had grow much liking on her but to no avail. He has no confidence, paranoid and afraid of rejection. He is eagerly wanting to let her know his feeling but at the same time he is self-defeating as he kept imagining how he will get rejected.

11) And so, the girl had moved on as the man still lagging in his own self-defeating play. The man had only realized it then, but is it too late? Will both of their path come across again? It was indeed difficult and sad for this man now, loosing the chance when he has it, leaving with only memories and regrets behind. He told himself to buckle up, get ready for the next play of fate. But will there be another round?

Have faith~ don't ever loose hope

12) Perhaps in life there are just too many instances where we hav no control totally. We are stuck helplessly, and with no direction to seek for advice nor help. Nevertheless, there's still this thing that we all have which we have overlook often times. 

13) Faith is the key here. With faith we can endure the difficulties, the challenges, the disastrous situation, the sad and emotionally weak moment. Faith is the key here.

The Unfinished Fight

1) Whenever we face some difficulties, an unfavorable condition, tough situation; we can either term this as a Challenge or a Problem. And, regardless what we like to call that particular circumstances, we have to face it. The way we handle such situation, we can either call it a Fight or a Struggle.

2) We might see a little difference in between these words, but our mind is so powerful that; at the very first instance; the thoughts that run through our mind counts.

3) If we perceive that tricky situation as a Problem and we have to Struggle through, the whole idea will be some sort of discouraging, and difficult to overcome. The message is negative.

4) On the other hand, if we perceive it as a Challenge and we have to Fight it through, despite knowing the result, either we will succeed or yet another failure, we will take the whole situation positively. You bet it, with such positive mindset, we can pick up the goods and overcome the bads. Overall, the whole fight experience we pick up will be a benefiting life lesson.

5) Such hefty introduction set the tunes of my blog this time around. Same old same old stories about work life,study life balancing.

6) This is just a reminder for myself on the Fight that I am facing, o weather the mountain high Challenge, but not the swampy struggle that I am stuck with. Problems as big as a black holes.

7) Conscience need to be clear and the self-believe must be there.

8) The challenge ahead seems much stiffer now on, yet it seems more interesting and happening than ever. 

9) To be honest, I am very much glad to embark on this journey, taking up this fight. I do not know where this path leads me, and how the destination would be. For what i see and what I felt, that things are moving in a quite positive manner in both internal and external environment.

10) The good old days, those halcyon days I had during my uni life's, the taste of freshman in my first year of working life, the very experience of moving up to Penang all alone ... ... Each with their own memories, and lessons of life. I treasured all of this and it serves as a strong reminder for me to always live my present life to the fullness and never allow regrets set-in. Never leave a blank page but fill it up with colors of life.

焕然大悟

1）2014的农历新年并没有什么特别的。由于婆婆要到澳洲去探望堂哥与她的曾孙，我们一家今年就没回爱大华过年。虽然在梳邦过年没那么热闹，但是只要能够一家人团聚就已经很足够了。

2）心情其实有些许忐忑，不踏实。静下来回想了一下，慢慢的去段测到底哪里来的忧虑。工作嘛，学业嘛也都忧心了好一段日子。也不该会如此产生那么深的感触与涟漪。

3）细心再沿着感觉往内窥探,答案就慢慢的浮现了起来。就是她的出现，让我的生活，那平凡无奇，千篇一律，单寡落寂的规律生活产生了变化。早在两年前的曼谷旅行时就认识了她。那时就与才18岁的她谈得很投机，好像认识了好长好久。我想默契就那样产生了。过后有一起出来喝咖啡，偶尔的联系，不过最后还是没联络了。我没有想得很多，就觉得能认识到她就心满义足了。

4）可能是上天的安排，也可能就只是凑巧，她尽然到我公司实习。二十岁的她还是那样，好爱开玩笑，友善及亲切。无法不承认，她的到来我的确很开心。这几星期相处下来，的确让我的生活染上了色彩。

5）也因为如此，我尽然发现了一个从来都没察觉的问题。我感到无助与错愕。原来过去的感情在我身上留下了一块挥不去的阴影。我在内心深处，曾经疼痛不堪，伤痕已愈合的地带建立了围墙。我设法远离与排斥任何有可能伤害我的人或事。原以为已伤愈已久的自己其实是那么的不堪一击。

6）我已放下了过去，接受了过去，努力去活在当下，只是从没想到竟然有那么一个阴影遮盖着。

7）我失去了曾经的勇气，我不敢去正视我的感觉，我没有自信，我觉得现实与梦想的差距太大，我不觉得上天会如此眷恋与照顾我。

8）我担心又陷入另一个低潮，我忧虑又是一场痛苦的经历，我害怕再一次的失望。

9）只有我自己可以去克服这问题。要再勇敢一次还是苟且的混过？

10）原来我是那么没自信与没勇气的人。我在这一刻才意识到。

11）Fight or Flight? 选择在我手里。

Chapter 2014 : Fresh Start

1. It was already middle of January 2014 and my MBA semester will be starting on coming weekends. Seems like the norm will slowly settle in, busy work, busy studies, busy complaining and nagging to myself and to others and that's it, another year went by.
2. Life is great and meaningful because we live with the sight of future expectation. We work hard for the future, student study hard for theirs, we saves whenever we could for ourselves and our family, we take good care of ourselves to be healthy so that we can enjoy quality life and for a longer span. So much things are pushing on indirectly and directly from our good expectation of on the future.
3. Hence, it is all important for us to have good expectation so that we have strong will to live a good life and a longer life.
4. I have my expectation, firstly on my career path. A better job, better pay, more fulfillment and job satisfaction. A job where i can achieve work-life balance as much as possible. 
5. I have my expectation, to spend more time with my family, especially with my parents, perhaps we can go for a tour together. That i can also spend time with my niece, carry her and have a good time with her.
6. I have my expectation, perhaps i will meet my Mrs. Right that we can share good and bad moment in life together, going places and venturing new stuffs, enjoying life together.
7. I have my expectation, to lead a better and healthy life, helping the people in needs, my friends, meeting people and sharing my ideas and thoughts.
8. I have my expectation, that i can enjoy the things i like to do like catching up with old friends, recalling our halcyon days, updating with their latest progress and amaze how time had passed between us.
9. So, i need to stay alive, and so i need to be healthy and happy, and so i need to carry on with the path i had undertaken, and so that is how i am going to write the pages in a book named 2014.
10. My friend Lih got married in November 2013 and another close friend Kooi Wei wedded on January 2014. I wishes them all the best in their marriage life and more happy moments to come. Congratulations to both of them for entering a new phase in life, one with much more responsibilities. My kind wishes and my prayers will be with them.
11. Perhaps some days later it will be my turns. I wonder how will i feel when my time has come. Haha, and this will be yet another expectations.