2) In my Uni days I really don't like cat as I think that they are not as loyal as dog, always wearing their cold look. As these kittens were so cute, can't help myself to buy some cat food to feed them.
3) The black kitten was smaller in size and weaker. Didn't show up after two times, the white one was stronger and bigger in size. She will meow In front of my doorstep daily after I come home for food. Initially I only feed her in front of my doorstep and didn't allow her to come in worrying that she will pee or shit in my room.
4) Some how after 2 weeks or so I allow her to play in my room. She will rub her body over my leg and giving out very soft meow asking for food. After the food she will treat my room as her play ground running here and there, playing with the strings, the phone Cable , the curtain , hide under my bed to scare me, trying to play with me, and curl herself into my leg when I am sitting on the floor.
5) Normally after her meal and letting her to play in my room for a while,I will let her out of my room. Normally she will wait outside at the walkway near the toilet till the next morning for the next feeding before I leave for work.
6) It went on for a good 2-3 weeks then until she started to give problem to other housemate as she is going into the rooms of others and shit in their room. She even got lock into their rooms three times as she quietly slip into the room and was locked inside as the guys went to work without noticing it. I was worrying about her and slip food under the room for her.
7) We can't imagine how terrible is the room when the owner finally came back and found out the room is in a mess with faulty smell as she shit on their bed. These got many people started to be furious at her and I get warned to not feed her in room.
8) Out of no choice I feed her at the door step of our dorm main door, I have to chase her out of our dorm for the better of others. Only in the morning she will still come meowing at my doorsteps for food.
9) As I thought this method of feeding is ok, for at least I still can feed her and she can start to mix more with other cats around the neighborhood; a tragedy happened few days ago.
10) The day before yesterday was a non working Saturday and she came to my room in the morning for food. After push the food out at my doorstep, I continue to sleep a while and prepare myself to bath and breakfast. After around 1 hour, as I was walk out the dorm main door. I was shocked and speechless to see her in a pool of blood, she was wounded at the head and was dead.
11) I was so sad and shocked and I couldn't react. I just picked her up and put her into s rubbish bag and put her into the dustbin. I didn't thought of burying her, I just wish to clear her body to avoid been further damage by other cars , cats or dogs.
12) I wonder what killed her, most likely by another cats as I heard her leaving my room and some at fighting sound near the main road. I don't think it was car that hit her and I choose to not believe that any human will kill such a small kitten.
13) Sadness loomed in me, I cried a few times as I recalled her roaming in my room. I miss her dearly as she will follow me if I am goin to toilet or goin to refill my water bottle. I miss her rubbing her body over my leg, I miss her playing with me. She is my only close 'friend' here I wonder why God brought her to me and taken her away so soon.
14) I appreciate the happiness she brought to me over the pass 1.5 month. She thought me all about love, care, responsibility. Taking care a cat is also a a huge responsibility as it was also a matter of another life, another living creature with love. I knew nothing I can do to bring her back to life. It is only memory now that she has left for me.
15) Again, she use her short life to remind me about the uncertainty in life, to not take things for granted, to appreciate all the good and bad things happening in my life for nothing is permanent. We live only once and live it to fullness. Thanks Xiao Bai for the joy and memory you brought to me.
