Guilty

1) I was guilty for a major mistake I made in my work. I felt upset, regretful and dissapointed of myself.
2) Now, what I should do is to regain the confident of myself and also confident of others.
3) Things are not going really well on my side. I knew this feeling of guilt will be haunting me for a long period. I cannot undone the wrong decisions regardless how much I wish to.
4) I need to build on my mistake. To analyse my wrong action, why, what and how. I have to gather myself together to restart my journey.
5) I knew it is important to learn the lesson and move on with it. I need to brace myself. I wouldn't want to surrender the battle nor the war. I nee's support, I need advice, and I need wisdom to overcome this challenge.

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生活以下；生存以上

1. 在这资本主义的世界里，多数人的生活模式往往都已经被拟定了。极少数的人能够超凡，过着比较不一样的生活。
2. 当人们觉得三餐温饱已经太朴实，有个朝九晚六的工作太耗时耗力，娱乐与消遣的时间越来越多，旅游不置是一年一次而是一年好几次，生活已不再是在乎够不够，而是舒服否，高档否。这是一个无法避免的过程，人们生活的进步，更加高的要求是必然的。
3. 持续的发展下去，人们的生理发展迅速但是心理的发展却赶不上，有些情况甚至是毫无进展。不知觉下人们就陷入了无尽的悬崖，生理的需要是无止尽的，这只会让人们痛苦，煎熬，不开心，毫无目标的生活下去。
4. 为了满足那无尽的需求，我们忙碌的工作，忙碌的生活，赚取更多的收入。可惜的是，不管我们如何的努力，那需求与收入的对比好像杯水车薪。
5. 渐渐的人们的眼中就只有金钱与更多的物质，心眼早已盲了。到底生活过的快乐吗？生活有意义吗？合上眼的刹那间，到地球上这一游，可有遗憾吗？生活过的有意义吗？
6. 可能我自己也回答不到以上的问题。生活就只有不断地尝试，探讨，揣摩，体会，沉淀，思考那当中的奥妙，玄机与想要得到的答案。这当中最重要的一怀是要打开我们的心怀，睁开我们的心眼。除了认真地生活，更要用心生活。认真地放下一切顾虑，怨恨，用心去体会与珍惜生活的每一刻，每一件美好的事情和回忆。
7. 当我们逐渐的学会放下与珍惜，生活将会有很大的改变，如果大家也和我一样，会察觉的天空会是特别的蔚蓝，彩虹出现的非常频密，夜晚的月色也特别的浪漫。
8. 唯有不断的努力，不断地提醒自己，无怯失败与受伤才不会落得生活一下，生存以上。

Family and Friend

1. Last weekends i was back to KL to celebrate Mother's Day. It's been a while, about 2 months since i last back to KL.
2. Of course the primary aim is to have some family time. On the night i am driving back, i had to fetch my parents from the airport, they just had their vacation in Bali, Indonesia.
3. It is high time for us to organize a family trip again, it's been a while too. Perhaps this time, a few additional family member will join together. My sister had a baby girl, by October our family will have another member. It's joyful, i can foreseen that.
4. My senior Chua was as usual busy with political work, his One Malaysia Center in Lembah Pantai was officially open on the Saturday. By chance, i went to help him up early in the morning. The local community can filled up the form and collect Brands chicken essence. There were many people and the response was really good. 
5. I took the chance to fetch Chu Hui back to her apartment. We chat a bit and she showed me around her new place.
6. I had a simple dinner with Mom and Dad in the coffee shop and then went to Station One for the YamCha session with others. We played some game and chit chatting, spending some wonderful time.
7. The next day, i went to pray in Thean Hou Temple, and then we went to celebrate Mother's Day. We had lunch in Damansara Jaya Choong Kee Claypot Chicken Rice. The taste is still that good. Sister bought a cake for mom. We were all in tears after singing song " Shi Shang Zi You Ma Ma Hou" Mom is the only best person in the world. Touching Moment.
8. After having afternoon tea with Chee Jian and Ze Keng, i started my journey back Penang.
9. Meaningful weekends with friends and family.