Farewell to Sabah

Attached with a photo of Sabah, Lahad Datu干捞面.







When I first officially overlook the project as a project engineer, I came to this place to have this special type of noodles.

Surely bring up lots of memory. It's even more emotional now as the trip I had last week to Sabah might me the last one I travelled there as a Project Engineer of ENV.

Don't even mention about Sandakan, a place I felt so nice and relaxing. This part of my life spending in Sabah is called, Morphing.

I started to really try to make thinking and speaking into action. Things from discussion room into reality. Giving out the best of me to challenge my own limit, to act spontaneously, independently, and wisely.

There is no room for procrastination for we know it will only delay if not worsen the pending issue.

I will definitely miss here. Place I started to learn and applied. A place i start to know myself more.

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Emotional Weekends

I thought I didn't care anymore. I thought I was immunned already. All this only the ignorance part of me hidden myself from a real me.

You are long gone! Why do you still wanna come back? Come back to haunt me? All the bitter and sad memory, I could still remembered vividly.

You are long forgotten. Why do you still wanna make a good impression that you are all kind and fair? All your did in the past, i can never forget.

I recalled also the happy part of the memory. But this only adds to the present sorrow. For which it's no longer there and will never be there.

Can you please leave me alone?

I am tired already, I do not know how many sleepless night I need to been through again and again.

Could you just leave me alone?

I felt I am victimized. I know I am irresponsible to myself. Please allow a breathing space for me. I need a rest. Please give me more time.

It's me. I am who I am. This time, I surrender.


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Living in a State of Ignorance

A picture I took at Bintulu Airport on my way back to KL.
The sky seems gloomy in certain area, and sunny in another area.
This as if like a mirror, reflecting my feeling now.

I am not happy but I am not sad either. I know my problem but I am helpless. Only time can ease my problem. I need to be focus on my goal in life. Too many things is out of my control, I can only control what I should do and how I should face it. It's me and only me now on this journey.




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