The Unfinished Fight

1) Whenever we face some difficulties, an unfavorable condition, tough situation; we can either term this as a Challenge or a Problem. And, regardless what we like to call that particular circumstances, we have to face it. The way we handle such situation, we can either call it a Fight or a Struggle.

2) We might see a little difference in between these words, but our mind is so powerful that; at the very first instance; the thoughts that run through our mind counts.

3) If we perceive that tricky situation as a Problem and we have to Struggle through, the whole idea will be some sort of discouraging, and difficult to overcome. The message is negative.

4) On the other hand, if we perceive it as a Challenge and we have to Fight it through, despite knowing the result, either we will succeed or yet another failure, we will take the whole situation positively. You bet it, with such positive mindset, we can pick up the goods and overcome the bads. Overall, the whole fight experience we pick up will be a benefiting life lesson.

5) Such hefty introduction set the tunes of my blog this time around. Same old same old stories about work life,study life balancing.

6) This is just a reminder for myself on the Fight that I am facing, o weather the mountain high Challenge, but not the swampy struggle that I am stuck with. Problems as big as a black holes.

7) Conscience need to be clear and the self-believe must be there.

8) The challenge ahead seems much stiffer now on, yet it seems more interesting and happening than ever. 

9) To be honest, I am very much glad to embark on this journey, taking up this fight. I do not know where this path leads me, and how the destination would be. For what i see and what I felt, that things are moving in a quite positive manner in both internal and external environment.

10) The good old days, those halcyon days I had during my uni life's, the taste of freshman in my first year of working life, the very experience of moving up to Penang all alone ... ... Each with their own memories, and lessons of life. I treasured all of this and it serves as a strong reminder for me to always live my present life to the fullness and never allow regrets set-in. Never leave a blank page but fill it up with colors of life.

焕然大悟

1）2014的农历新年并没有什么特别的。由于婆婆要到澳洲去探望堂哥与她的曾孙，我们一家今年就没回爱大华过年。虽然在梳邦过年没那么热闹，但是只要能够一家人团聚就已经很足够了。

2）心情其实有些许忐忑，不踏实。静下来回想了一下，慢慢的去段测到底哪里来的忧虑。工作嘛，学业嘛也都忧心了好一段日子。也不该会如此产生那么深的感触与涟漪。

3）细心再沿着感觉往内窥探,答案就慢慢的浮现了起来。就是她的出现，让我的生活，那平凡无奇，千篇一律，单寡落寂的规律生活产生了变化。早在两年前的曼谷旅行时就认识了她。那时就与才18岁的她谈得很投机，好像认识了好长好久。我想默契就那样产生了。过后有一起出来喝咖啡，偶尔的联系，不过最后还是没联络了。我没有想得很多，就觉得能认识到她就心满义足了。

4）可能是上天的安排，也可能就只是凑巧，她尽然到我公司实习。二十岁的她还是那样，好爱开玩笑，友善及亲切。无法不承认，她的到来我的确很开心。这几星期相处下来，的确让我的生活染上了色彩。

5）也因为如此，我尽然发现了一个从来都没察觉的问题。我感到无助与错愕。原来过去的感情在我身上留下了一块挥不去的阴影。我在内心深处，曾经疼痛不堪，伤痕已愈合的地带建立了围墙。我设法远离与排斥任何有可能伤害我的人或事。原以为已伤愈已久的自己其实是那么的不堪一击。

6）我已放下了过去，接受了过去，努力去活在当下，只是从没想到竟然有那么一个阴影遮盖着。

7）我失去了曾经的勇气，我不敢去正视我的感觉，我没有自信，我觉得现实与梦想的差距太大，我不觉得上天会如此眷恋与照顾我。

8）我担心又陷入另一个低潮，我忧虑又是一场痛苦的经历，我害怕再一次的失望。

9）只有我自己可以去克服这问题。要再勇敢一次还是苟且的混过？

10）原来我是那么没自信与没勇气的人。我在这一刻才意识到。

11）Fight or Flight? 选择在我手里。