- Again, i have to repeat this. Time is really flying. Many memories of the past of how i had spend the Christmas, resurface on my mind.
- Many things people might had forgotten but i still remembered clearly. Perhaps others is forgetful, perhaps they've more things to focus on.
- I am always like that. I carried a lot of memory with me. My friend told me, this is good, cause it means i treat everything with the full dedication, with all my heart.
- Things had actually getting better. I know how to handle my feelings and my memory. Yet, at times i will still been caught up. Sitting down and wondering many things.
- Tomorrow i am going down to Melacca for company Trip, spend a night in melacca then in johor finally to singapore.
- I realized i have many memories, each in different places. Melacca with be with my Uni First Year Debating friends, working colleague, Johor will be with colleagues also, my first and second job and with Tim.
- Singapore will be with my form 6 friends, syn yin, Gerald, Shwu Nee. Those time we're really close and happy.
- The most important thing now is for me to cherish every present moment and be happy.
- I just wanna be happy.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Christmas Night
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Lonely but not boring
1) After watching a funny Malaysian-made movie, I have decided to go to BUkit Mertajam to have a tea break.
2) Realized that, finally I know how the way in BM, at least to connect from Berapit-BM-Seberang Perai.
3) I had a Kuey Teow Soup and a Sugarcane ice. The food is alright. This place is recommended by Shu Mei and Woo Ken, next to the Tua Pek Kong Temple in the pasar area.
4) After that, I decides to go to the Pantai Bersih to enjoy the sea view. Well it's only near y from my place. Not a great place with great Sea and view, but at least I can listen to the wave, felt the winds and see families picnic along the beaches.
5) I have been long thinking what should I do for the weekends. I guess I shouldn't have care too much how well I could have spend the weekends with my friends and family in KL rather than how boring and alone I will be here.
6) Perhaps the key here that i have to be alone, is for me to learn how to enjoy my Life, appreciate my Life and experience my Life. What that's important for me, what's that matter for me and what's my value that I upbring all this while.
7) This journey now i think will affect me alot in my future. This journey will help me to understand myself more, to really help myself overcoming my problem that I had faced so far.
8) The reason behind is because the environment had force me to face thing and deal with things differently. I have to face it by myself and must deal with it differently. A more positive and soft approach.
9) For all I know is I WANT TO BE HAPPY. So I shall never forget how to be happy and make sure things do not affect me so much.
10) I prayed all the time, for the mercy from the god for giving me another chance. For a better me, a more complete me.
11) I should be a more responsible, and independent me before I can let other rely on me. I have to keep reminding myself, to listen to my support.
12) I like to watch the video i recorded where you asked me to keep up and "add oil". It meant a lot to me. Thank you.
13) I also wishes you to have what you really want and achieve in life. I think most importantly is to be happy.
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
A small Breakthrough
1) I was having a roller coaster week. From high energy level to a low, lower, and lowest energy level.
2) I had tried to identify my weaknesses, my problem and aspect of me that needs improvement from previous blog post.
3) Slightly busy weekends with my aunty from Ayer Tawar and cousins to entertain with. Actually I enjoyed accompanying them to shop in Jusco.
4) This afternoon around 3pm, I went to mountain hiking with uncle and his family. This mountain called Tukun Relics. I can see it clearly every morning from my apartment's window.
5) It was a huge mountain and honestly the hike was harder, much harder than I had expected. There were many instances that I wanted to give up but I kept telling myself to go on. Go on and on. Just like the video I saw the other day over the Keman's training.
6) It was a tough one and finally I had made it up. The feeling of achieving this was excellent. A sense of accomplishment and fullfillment.
7) I spent the night clearing my room to make it look more appealing and tidier. Washed my clothes and things were all fine.
8) At this instance, image of her flashes in my mind. I gave her a call wishing things are alright. Just to share a few moment of my life today with her, and listening to her voice is good enough already.
9) I decides to find a place to write this blog and I had found Restaurant Pelita in Chai Leng Park is the most suitable location. The air-conditined dining room was still opened.
10) Although Maggie curry soup is not as tasty as I wish to, but it was alright. Environment is quiet and smokes free. The smokers and noises was all outside in the open air area.
11) Small achievement like conquering Tukun Mount was a good stepping stone and help to motivates me to go on.
12) I felt i was doing alright and well now. I know I have no regrets at all for coming here. I know that deep down, I was working hard and trying hard to adapt. I knew that I am happier than last time. I will be even happier if you are around. To share this life experience and moments with you.
13) No matter what, I cherish everything that we've been through for this is already part of me, part of my past and part of my story. This is me, kit leong. My story with you inside, story that's still playing, still on-going. Wishing you have a great day tomorrow.
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2) I had tried to identify my weaknesses, my problem and aspect of me that needs improvement from previous blog post.
3) Slightly busy weekends with my aunty from Ayer Tawar and cousins to entertain with. Actually I enjoyed accompanying them to shop in Jusco.
4) This afternoon around 3pm, I went to mountain hiking with uncle and his family. This mountain called Tukun Relics. I can see it clearly every morning from my apartment's window.
5) It was a huge mountain and honestly the hike was harder, much harder than I had expected. There were many instances that I wanted to give up but I kept telling myself to go on. Go on and on. Just like the video I saw the other day over the Keman's training.
6) It was a tough one and finally I had made it up. The feeling of achieving this was excellent. A sense of accomplishment and fullfillment.
7) I spent the night clearing my room to make it look more appealing and tidier. Washed my clothes and things were all fine.
8) At this instance, image of her flashes in my mind. I gave her a call wishing things are alright. Just to share a few moment of my life today with her, and listening to her voice is good enough already.
9) I decides to find a place to write this blog and I had found Restaurant Pelita in Chai Leng Park is the most suitable location. The air-conditined dining room was still opened.
10) Although Maggie curry soup is not as tasty as I wish to, but it was alright. Environment is quiet and smokes free. The smokers and noises was all outside in the open air area.
11) Small achievement like conquering Tukun Mount was a good stepping stone and help to motivates me to go on.
12) I felt i was doing alright and well now. I know I have no regrets at all for coming here. I know that deep down, I was working hard and trying hard to adapt. I knew that I am happier than last time. I will be even happier if you are around. To share this life experience and moments with you.
13) No matter what, I cherish everything that we've been through for this is already part of me, part of my past and part of my story. This is me, kit leong. My story with you inside, story that's still playing, still on-going. Wishing you have a great day tomorrow.
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Location:Lekuk Kurau,Perai,Malaysia
Saturday, December 4, 2010
A Break Badly Needed
1) The first time I went bck KL was during the Raya break. The second time was during the Deepavali break and the third was last weekends for Keman Training.
2) I felt weaker actually, everytime after coming back Penang from KL. Seems like I need to re-adapt and re-experience everything again.
3) During the training last week, i felt really positive and energized for my work and future. A positive outlook with you means a lot for me.
4) Its really a test from GOD. My work and life went a level up. This is not the first time I felt stress over the demands and expectation from my uncle. If I have a choice, I will prefer to work in a more positive and encouraging environment. Maybe itis up to me to create this if it is not given. I had talked myself over about this, I need to create this.
5) Probably because of this, I reallized other things also went wrong. I was getting more sensitive.
7) I am getting more demanding and selfish than usual. I had became very restless and paranoid.
8) Eversince I moved here, I realized the DOWN time where I felt restless and sad was lesser. Perhaps I starts to let go more things and learned to see things from different angle. Or maybe I starting to love myself more.
9) There were a few things I still cannot let go. I am learning and I am trying. I know the effort is not enough. I hate it when I feel and experience this negative feeling. Like loosing myself, my value and my life.
10) Perhaps I have put her too high up in my priority and she never regards me as high as I do. Perhaps she felt that she's busy with things that she might have neglected me. Maybe there were things that is more important at that times.
11) There's no hatred. Only love involved. If this is love, then I must wish her and pray for her happiness and wellness. By doing this, maybe I will feel calm and fullfilled my destiny to take care of her.
12) I need a break. For me to readjust myself. To recharge myself. Yes I need to face this challege. The only way I can breakthrough my life.
2) I felt weaker actually, everytime after coming back Penang from KL. Seems like I need to re-adapt and re-experience everything again.
3) During the training last week, i felt really positive and energized for my work and future. A positive outlook with you means a lot for me.
4) Its really a test from GOD. My work and life went a level up. This is not the first time I felt stress over the demands and expectation from my uncle. If I have a choice, I will prefer to work in a more positive and encouraging environment. Maybe itis up to me to create this if it is not given. I had talked myself over about this, I need to create this.
5) Probably because of this, I reallized other things also went wrong. I was getting more sensitive.
7) I am getting more demanding and selfish than usual. I had became very restless and paranoid.
8) Eversince I moved here, I realized the DOWN time where I felt restless and sad was lesser. Perhaps I starts to let go more things and learned to see things from different angle. Or maybe I starting to love myself more.
9) There were a few things I still cannot let go. I am learning and I am trying. I know the effort is not enough. I hate it when I feel and experience this negative feeling. Like loosing myself, my value and my life.
10) Perhaps I have put her too high up in my priority and she never regards me as high as I do. Perhaps she felt that she's busy with things that she might have neglected me. Maybe there were things that is more important at that times.
11) There's no hatred. Only love involved. If this is love, then I must wish her and pray for her happiness and wellness. By doing this, maybe I will feel calm and fullfilled my destiny to take care of her.
12) I need a break. For me to readjust myself. To recharge myself. Yes I need to face this challege. The only way I can breakthrough my life.
Location:Lorong Kikik 2,Perai,Malaysia
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