My Faith ; My Happiness

1. Recently i just cannot sleep well. I have to depends on the medication, primary to reduce my skin itchiness which with side-effect like drowsiness to help me.
2. I had become restless, sensitive and very pron of feeling sad. Some how i know this is not right and not i really wanted.
3. I had been hiding this feeling for sometime, it will arise whenever i am all alone, thinking and wondering. I had lost my faith, and my confident. I became very paranoid, and in the same time very demanding.
4. I really do miss you, but i have no courage to face you.
5. I felt especially sad when my soon left for KL last sunday. I felt my happiness was no more there. Getting further and further away. Again i was brought back to reality, the reality of life that i have to face. My problem, and my over-due sickness.
6. I became very paranoid, afraid of been neglected, been abandoned, been disregard. The more i felt so, the deeper the feeling roots within me.
7. I want to be free, to be happy again. I have to do something... I have to do something...

Nasi Lemak 2.0

1. I had watched this local-made film by NameWee. One of the most controversial figure in Malaysia nowadays. He made his name by a song titled "Negarakuku" and then another song went popular in YouTube regarding The Power Supply Failure by TNB.
2. This movie again had stirred some air and created many topic between fellow Malaysians.
3. Of course, initially i was reluctant to watch this movie, owing to the Film is by Namewee and is locally made. I had a very bad experience with one of the local film, called 笑咏春.
4. Surprisingly this movie is really funny, comparatively, i thought this movie is funnier than Johnny English Reborn. This movie blended with a lot of Malaysia colours, our culture, our political, social and daily chores and issues. Namewee successfully blend all these into this movie and present in a humorous way.
5. Nevertheless, this movie got a lot of critics from UMNO Youth and some part of the society. Somehow, i beg for differ this time. This movie had let me to know the other side of Namewee.
6. This movie is truly MALAYSIA, with many different ethnic blended in the movie. Many jokes are trying to criticize (in a humour way), regardless is GLC or the government. All in all, this actually lead to a good way. To admit what are we lacking and our weakness, meanwhile also be proud of what we have.
7. The theme song Rasa Sayang 2.0 is rather meaningful. If we browse through the lyric, it's all about loving our country, be a proud Malaysian, and show gratitude to the country.
8. Namewee is surely a patriotic-guy. No one will enjoy criticizing, waste their energy and time to condemn, it's ain't not fun. He has his way to show his love to the country, just that his way is different. Perhaps not everyone can accept it, but his big theme, his aim is to spread the message, to LOVE MALAYSIA, and be a proud Malaysian.

To Believe-in ; To Achieve-out

A Double Rainbow~ Wee Wee

Yes! Thank you for the support... i know you were there~

Just few minutes, the rainbow vanishes as the sun retired.

1. Although i had a holiday on Friday, for Malaysia Day, the rest seems like never enough. The pressure and mental stress from work haunted me. Of course, with this, i had attracted many negative energy. My soon was right that, perhaps i just have not find a way to change it to positive.
2. I could not find the courage anymore, to call you, or call my soon. I am really afraid of the feeling of been neglected, been forgotten, been isolated. I had phobia already. I don't want to feel that people do not cherish me anymore, that i am not important for them, especially to get these feeling from the people that i care so much.
3. The omen i got from Tian Hou Gong was right on the first part. That i will face many difficulties and challenges now. Both in work-wise and relationship-wise, i had encounter problem. Perhaps some problem which i could not solve, could not help, could not figure out how it actually works and to react.
4. The omen said everything will be alright after the Spring, which is coming Chinese New Year. I really do hope everything will be alright very soon.
5. I cherished the company from Kenny and Hang Chuan during this time, although they do not really know what had happened and what my problem might be, but, their company do helps.
6. Although i do not have Monday Blues but somehow, sunday night was a bit of depressing. I always think and wonder too much on sunday night. This time, i took dinner alone in Chai Leng Park. After eating the Mix Rice, i was walking around looking for fruit stall.
7. Sadly, i couldn't locate any fruit stall, at that instance, i felt so empty and helpless again. Feeling of loneliness rose within me, obviously, it's not because of failure to get any fruits, instead it was just purely disturbance of my inner-peace.
8. As i was walking to get my car, i look up the sky, to my surprise, i saw this huge rainbow, and a second rainbow vividly behind of the first one. I was overwhelm, totally astonished with what i saw. What a miracle. Quickly, i snap a few photos and attached with this blog.
9. It's been really special for me, there's already a few time that whenever i felt helpless or felt troubled, somehow, rainbow will be there. I know this might be purely coincidence, but i choose to believe that, this is the way that GOD encourages me, telling me to strive harder, try harder, and work harder, that good things are just around the corner.
10. Rainbow is not something that we can enjoy watching everyday as our wish. It's by chance that it occur, and it's by chance that at that particular time and moment that we are staring at the skies to enjoy this beautiful creation of GOD.
11. The time-span for Rainbow is rather short, although it's just for temporary, but this had taught us more about the event of life, that nothing is permanent. We had to grasp and do whatever that we want as soon as we can and able.
12. After enjoying this short and enjoyable moment. I drove to the cineplex and took another photo of the sunset. Breath-taking one.
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14. THANK YOU~ I get the message~ Really appreciate the support... really...
    
15. Sharing with those who i really love and care, my friends and family, wishing you are to be blessed with health and happiness....the moment...the present that we must cherish...now ...

Mooncake Festival

1. Without noticing, it's already Mid-Autumn Festival. During my first year of University, i injured my leg during a promotional tour for 10th National Inter-vasity Chinese Debating Competition to Penang. I injured my ankle as came down from bus to Pacific Megamall.
2. This memory was particular clear as i remembered that my fellow friends from college went to a walk with Tanglung as i rest helplessly on my double-Decker bed as my leg was swollen.
3. My dad and Big Aunt came over to my hostel to visit me and gave me a massage. The few years of the Mid-Autumn Festival i had celebrated with my friends in University. We organized the inaugural First Pesta Tanglung of 10th Residential College. All the crazy deeds, happy memories were all i left with.
4. It seems no more any special for this Mid-Auturm Festival this time around. Without accompany of my family and friends, this traditional festival seems rather typical. Some wishes and also mooncake photo from my soon, of course had saved the day. Well, this festival meant for re-union, a special for people that we love and care to get together.
5. This particular week was rather headache and heart-breaking. Took me sometime to finish up this blog post. Many things were going-on that particular week.
6. Everyone were stressed out, for the new BDV project. We faced many challenges to produce good FG for the customer. Luckily, we manage to produce some satisfactory goods at the end. Of course, boss temper was really bad. I had been his scape-goat for releasing his temper and stress. Perhaps he didn't notice, but the damage was there. I was really upset, and hurt. I cried over the phone with my mom.
7. I thought to share it out and discuss with my boss, but after cooling down, i find this is not necessary. He will just be him and he will never change. In order to survive better, for my work life to be not so stressful, i must learn to handle his temper.
8. Of course, escape if necessary, to react back if necessary, to forget if it is a must.
9. Hopefully i can en-devour all this challenges.