Proposal Defence and Father's Day

1. My previous usual routine on Sunday is to have a cup of cafe latte in Starbucks while doing some reading, blogging or assignment. It's been a while, since i last did that.
2. Bought a new tumbler, thermos-flask kind where can kept the drink warm for some time.
3. I would like to make a short account on my 1st Proposal Defence yesterday. I was so nervous the night before where i couldn't really sleep well. Iron my pants and shirt the next morning AGAIN, after i did it the night before just to ensure everything looks good.
4. I think that i am not nervous at all as i had done many different presentations before. Yet, subconsciously i am indeed quite nervy. Evidence us from the inability to sleep well the night before; okay perhaps i can blame that on the Coke Light i took during dinner time. Yet another undeniable evidence is on the shaking hand syndrome; haha.. my hand is shaking as i am using the laser pointer; can i blame this on the coffee .. or maybe ya.. the coke make me loose my sleep and by loosing my sleep, my hand is shaking the next morning; cascade effect. Haha alright, i am indeed very nervous.
5. Anyhow, i am so glad that everything went on smoothly with some minor questions to be answered. Next will be on my data analysis and interpretation part. Moving on~
6. My dad is here in Penang, accompanying my grandma as my uncle and aunt went to India to visit my cousin. Brought my dad to Stone Age to have Western Food and as the portion is small; after visiting AutoCity, we have to have another round of supper at Chai Leng Park.
7. The plan for today is to bring him for dino movie tonight. The last time i had movie with my dad will be around 2-3 years ago during CNY watching Jackie Chan and LeeHom movie.
8. Will be a busy week ahead; workload, thesis, cleaning my house (getting ready for friend's visit), Pesta Tanglung in SP and etc.
9. Moving on~

The INSATIABLE

1. This had always be my problem. I hated it when i feel it this way. It took over the control of my life before and i will not allow it to happen again.
2. Yet, what is most detrimental about having this feeling is having to aware of it and yet cannot contain it.
3. The insatiable need for attention and pledge of care and love from someone directly and indirectly; the thirst that can never be satisfied is a dead end which only leads to more suffering, destruction and devastation.
4. How can i knew it but yet still jumping into this deadly trap? How can i realized all the potential hazard and yet i indulge myself and allow it to control my life? How can such a logical things to do seems so uncontrollable which is so illogical as we are speaking of it ?
5. With more wants create more sufferings, by satisfying the unlimited wants will not feed satisfaction but instead further fuel up the insatiable needs. 
6. Ironically, it is so easy to stop this wishful thinking but simply stop thinking. If only there is this 'On' and 'Off' button in my mind. It means that i need to control my mind rather than the other way round. I and myself is not equals to me. I is not me. Dis-identifying from oneself is to liberate myself for the Ego version of I.
7. Inspired by The Power Of Now by Eckart Tolle.
8. Perhaps i need some real meditation camp to exercise more control on my mind.