Long Overdue Catch Up

1. It's already been nearly 5 months since my last post.
2. Many things indeed happened over the whole period. Life was as occupied as ever with my daily chores, endeavor in searching the meaning of life, getting by and living through life.
3. Actually there is some element of avoidance; by writing a blog post, it is essentially a dialogue with myself. Nothing but truth is revealed. It is like getting naked under the spotlight, yet of course i can still choose not to stand in the focus zone, and i also have an option to decide which part of me to be shine under the light.
4. Many things revolving in my mind all this while. To further pursue my studies (where, when, how ?), to look for a new career challenges else where (where, when and how?), and finding that someone who appreciate and care for me as much as i care for her (where is she now?). As i like to advice my friends to take things one by one, to have faith in life where a higher power has a plan for us, to accept the is-ness of life and things; but yet, at times it took control most part of my life, like a black hole, diminishing my mental thoughts and energy, as i cannot think though it.
5. For most part of the past few months, life was in an auto-cruise mode; day-to-day mundane chores and challenges. I cannot conclude that this is not the life i have wanted, after all everyone has to  do the laundry even if you are an enlighten being. You still have to throw the rubbish bin and realized that the plastic bags had holes and the smelly water drips from within, you still face parking summons if you fail to pay parking ticket and etc.
6. Life always has its way to drag us back to face the drift of life.
7.  Undeniably, there is also some glimpse of hope shine in my life over the last few months period. At a time, i was picturing myself, furthering my studies overseas with my loved one at my side and assume that lecturing and teaching will be my life-time career; at another time, i was picturing i am back with my family in KL, hanging out with my bros playing monopoly card games, and trying hard to lead a life everyone deemed normal; and another time, i am dreaming about there is not much changes, very much the status quo, simple life as i found a simple girl, working in a simple company, pursuing my part time doctorate making small and simple progress in every small aspects of my life.
8. I guess the reader of my blog will think that i am lucky to still be sane after all this. Well, that is me, i am a thinker and a more sarcastic way of saying will be, i really does enjoy mental masturbation. (The process of thinking and thinking and thinking again, the reason, because it creates a sense of thrill for the dreamer) Haha, this is in fact the key way for me to remind myself from not mental masturbating. Hahaha, how ironic.
9. As from the saying, action speaks louder than words, and in my case, everything is meaningless if there is no action. It is really unfortunate that i failed to secure a job in KL (the odds are pretty high that i might be going back), but surprisingly the firm rejected my offer in a very last minute manner. Life still goes on and everything is still fine, i kept telling myself.
10. I was indeed sad at the very beginning when i heard the news about them withdrawing the offer. I realized that, it is not about the job, or relocation, it is the changes that i wish and i wanted. And i realized how much i wish for a change.
11. Life still goes on and this too shall pass. The greatest change is from with"in" not with"out". I told myself to be patience and perhaps it will take some little more time. 

Reality Check

1) It was almost two weeks past since my vacation to Sydney.
2) I have wanted to produce some writing about my thoughts and feeling on what I gain and experience as well as the after match thought.
3) The mundane lifestyle and busy working schedule had literally swallow a big part of me as it was working-sleeping-working-sleeping routine at a day to day basic.
4) Recap on my trip, on the day before I left, I went for the famous Bondi - Cogee coastal walk. One has to experience it to believe it. The magnificent seaview and the sky. Both joining at the end of the horizon forming an endless line. The cloudless sky with the blue ocean instantly recharges my energy to finish this 3hours walk. The luck is on my side as I got to witness both dolphins and whales. Such a majestic creature, cruising gracefully, everyone was amazed with this precious moment.
5) I spend the afternoon reading by the beach, enjoying the breeze and the view. Where is there a better place to read?
6) I met up with her for a ramen dinner. Funny enough I am the one who ordered spicy noodles and I don't regret it. It was hot and frankly I had underestimated it. The dinner completes with ice cream next door. Something new that I learned about her is that she can't take mango. It seems that we both had never try any mango desert cafe or juice... most probably most of our meets are in cafe or restaurant.
7) After some groceries shopping, she went back to her office to meet up with her boss. We shop for some fruit juice at IGA after her meeting and bid farewell. It was rather brief, like we going to meet rather soon. Nevertheless, I enjoyed every moment now and then with her.
8) She seems really enjoying her life there, of course there are so many challenges and difficulties she had to face but yet she grew up to it and hopefully she can reap the fruits soon enough. May luck shine on her and I wish her all the best.
9) Never picture that I have such opportunity to know her life and environment, after all this years, the odds is actually pretty small. There is just so many unforeseen and unplanned things happened everyday as life unfolds itself to us. We can only cherish and hold on to every moment now.
10) As I returned to work, the great contrast between now and trip is rather like a reality check. I don't have dinner companion, there isn't so many poster quality view around, the weather is rather humid and hot here and she is a many hours ahead.
11) It will be the beginning of the last 61days of 2016 tomorrow. Buckle up and let us sail it through.

Live-ability

1) Of course, with human ultra ability to adapt, we can almost survive and in fact adapt into different life condition and circumstances.

2) From my past two days observation and chatting with my friends, I strongly felt that Sydney is a great city, with a very balance and good mixture of things which are deemed important for me. E.g. The balance lifestyle, the culture and value of the people, proximity to the sea and the breath-taking view, not so busy city life, good quality of food around ( I had tried Korean, Chinese, Vietnam and home cooked food, haha, and will be trying ramen tomorrow) and the weather.

3) Like what she said it is hard to not love here.

4) I am grateful for SuenChi and Howie for their warm hospitality, hosting me, bringing me around Canbramatta and also met up with SuenChi's family. It seems rather like a Subang Jaya gathering. Haha, it is good and warm.

5) And, finally I get to meet Tim today. I understand that she is busy, and I am also very grateful that she still making effort to meet up with me. Too bad that I am not able to join her cLass as I would really love to see it personally. After all, this trip is more about visiting her in Sydney.

6) We had a walk around her campus, she showed me around the usual path she took, her office, her favorite coffee spot, the purple flower tree that I had always loved, some of the scenic view in the campus as well as telling me stories about her life in this campus. 

7) I recalled the trip we had 7years ago back to her primary school in Kulai, the feeling seems familiar.

8) I didn't talk much, just trying to enjoy every moment now and then. Yes, it is all magnificent, and the weather became Sunny after drizzling for most of the day, which was perfect for the tour around the campus. Now I can imagine and apply the stories she told me with the location and proper context.

9) We had our dinner at a Hu Nan Restaurant nearby the campus. The food is crazily nice, again is it because of her or the food I wonder. But, I am still very conscious, the dish is just too oily, typical China food. Ironically, tasty but oily.

10) We then has a small drink back at her campus before we retired. As time flies, we have also aged. Now we choose to use beer to replace the mamak(yum cha). 

11) Here and now, I truly enjoy every moment with her. 

12) There is a short phrase that I had wrote with reference to the feeling while eating the ice cream, while enjoying the view of the opera house, under the breeze wind with romantic background music.

迎面海景，凉风飘逸，

小小的雪糕，大大的梦想，

动听的旋律，还有你的陪伴，

此刻犹如永恒，此时就是永久。

对的人，事，物，时间，地点；

此时此刻，

还有什么遗憾与牵挂，

还有什么烦恼与痛苦；

知足常乐，感恩还有那么一个你。

吹吹海风，吃吃雪糕，乐哉乐哉,

所谓生活不过就是希望这样而已。

Western World in Asia Pacific

1) It was my first visit to a place outside of Asia. Many new experiences to be felt and told about.

2) I have to blog this as memory tends to fail me at times.

3) The 8hours long flight was smooth and I boarded the train to CBD Sydney after getting a Yes Oparus line which is surprisingly cheap at $2/day, and an Opal card like the EZLink card.

4) Was abit lost initially on my way to my backpack hostel. Thanks for my old faithful Nokia phone and some beginner luck, I manage to get to the destination, it just seems like appeared in front of me.

5) Spend some time walking around street and realized that all the items are considered expensive after conversion; but relatively cheap if compared a dollar to a dollar.

6) The next Morning I spend sometime to finish up my office work before meeting up with Tim at the Town Hall. We had very special cake (in conjunction with our birthday) with watermelon in between layers of cream, bottom layered with cookies, top with strawberries and sprinkle with rose petal at the very top. It was a 100% WoW on the rich taste. The goodness of it, is not something comprehensible until you try it yourself.

7) After that we had a long walk to the famous Sydney Opera House. The magnificent building together with the harbor view is breath-taking. We went around for a short walk enjoying the view. It was really relaxing and fun. We had some nice chat by the sea, and a 'famous' ice cream according to Tim hahaha!! It's all nice and wonderful.

8) We then took a ferry ride to Darling Harbour cruising under the Harbour Bridge and enjoying the splendid view of Sydney. It was stunning and a view to die for.

9) Our dinner location is a Korea Restaurant nearby China Town which Tim has always wanted to visit. I finally took beef which taste surprisingly good. The food is really tasty and I wonder was it due to the partner or it is just purely good food. I like the service attitude of the staffs there and the price is very reasonable.

10) Next we went to Coles Supermarket, it was a really good experience to shop with Tim. I like the idea of doing grocery shopping with her, knowing what she likes and buys, participating in her life. We then took a bus ride back to her campus and after I sent her off, I was then back to my hostel.

11) Despte it was only the second time walking back to my hostel, it was already all too familiar. I have yet to plan what to do tmr as Tim is busy with her proposal. Will only see her again joining her class on coming Monday. 

12) I am now blogging after did some reading.Sleeping soon as it is about 1am local time.

生命之旅

记忆里的小时候, 就非常的贪吃,爱闹,爱哭,喜欢看电视;

回忆起中学时期, 就喜欢跟大队,打球,看戏,到处探探险;

想起大学的日子, 每天都忙碌活动, 朋友圈子大,生活多姿多彩;

刚步入社会工作, 对过去有些释怀, 很多要学习, 每一步都新鲜;

渐渐的长大成熟, 明白了什么叫现实, 什么叫残酷, 生活还是如常延进;

迈入了三十岁后, 才开始领悟与体会, 沉静与明志, 清心寡欲的重要性;

展望未来的日子, 家庭事业生活体验, 每一块都是生命的拼图, 每一块都重要;

追寻生命的意义, 像迷一般的可能性, 每一次的决定都可改变, 下一刻的未来.

这就是生命之旅; 一段奇妙的旅程