A DileMMa

When the Sun rise each day, it breath life to every living creatures;

A busy day for the birdies, for plants to start photosynthesizing; for us to start our daily routine;

There's exception, there's out-liers; 

For those who had forgotten to breath, who are unable to breath;

We're sorry that there'll be no more sun-shine for them that morning.

It will be all gloomy dark; no path to proceed and no path to back-track with.

We don't know whether there'll be an underworld, or is there a so called Heaven or Hell;

We do not know is there a life after death, or is there any reincarnation.

With so much uncertainty, hence the scare of Death.

Now, we face the first dilemma.

As we first catches our breath out from mother's womb, greeting us are all the smiling face.

when we are schooling, there's only two things in our mind not other than eat and play.

How about school works? One may ask, we said lets save it for another day.

During our university days, and early adult-hood we have more things to deal with.

As our family grow, more things arises which required our full attention and dedication.

When there's problem with multiple solutions to choose from, we call that life.

Without knowing the consequences of each option, we take it one after another.

There's a situation, there's circumstances where a wrong choice been made;

Again, it's all gloomy dark, a dead end is starring at us.

There's no turning back, there's no help available. This is a not taken path.

Now, we face the second dilemma.

Life or Death ?

Many choose the former but situation will come when the latter is preferred.

Now, Life or Death ? Please answer me.

 

What Else Do You Want?

1) Although the workload had significantly reduce since end of August, but there seems still not enough time to write a proper post here. I would like to note down some of my feelings, the ups and down here.

2) Perhaps this is the side of me that I do not wish to face directly all this while. I do not wish to remember how helpless I was, and how foolish I had been. The other sides of me who is inferior, lack of confidence, been paranoid, not appreciating the present and whatever that I already had, not able to see far, and just not good enough.

3) Another round of soul searching, gathering all my might and buckle-up to go on. I kept telling myself that. Yet, I still feel my weakness, my downfall. Is that a normal cycle? Up and Down, and Up and Down.

4) Its the same old song just a slight different remix this time. It’s a great deal for me, family and friends, and it has been like that all this while. I felt my future is in the dark now, working hard at work, doing part time studies, but who can be sure and tell me that my future will be brighter and better?

5) At times I picture myself in a long winding road all along. There’s no end to it, and there’s no company beside me. Realistically I know this is not true, but perhaps this is the feeling that I carry indirectly all this time.

6) After the trip in Cambodia, my parents and family came over to visit me in Penang. I brought them to visit Penang, had a drink in Starbucks Strait Quay, my mom’ favourite Chendol and the Assam Laksa in Ayer Itam. My pal, Chua, Lih and Leely came, and I appreciated their visit during very much. I met up with Shu Mei a half day trip in Penang, had a good afternoon tea in MugShot, and movie. Melvin came, we enjoyed dinner in China House and walk around the George town street during mid of July, haha, what the hack was that for, and we had pillow talk in the night. Sharon came with her friends and we met up after my class, had a good talk between us to catch up with each other. I had also met up with my soon; a wonderful fattening supper in China House, spending time chatting, drawing on the mahjong paper and playing Bingo and tic tac toe.

7) So many people came and we spent quality time together, but I am still not satisfied. The reason been is the nature cycle of Up and Down. After the happiness, there’s always the sadness. Always I felt emotional when they left, I will try to sleep, or watch movie, just keeping myself busy so I could think less.

8) The semester had started early this month and finally all the assignments and tests have started to kicks in. It is time to get busy. Guess I will have less time to torture my brain after this. Knowing that it is me and always been me, I will need to put my emo-self aside and move on with next task now. 

Cambodia Trip - The Memory and The Future

1. It was a crazy week before i manage to get back to Subang and catch my flight to Cambodia. Super pack and busy work over the week before and also the rush to settle up my final assignment for this semester.
2. Anyhow finally i am here in Cambodia, using the computer from the Hotel to post this blog. Currently in Siam Reap just done visiting the magnificient Angkor Wat, Ta phrom, Bayon temple and other interesting places today. 
3. What a tired day that we had walked almost for 6 hours since the morning at 5 am till the evening. Lucky that we had break in between that we could rest our leg. Picture shall be posted in my blog post later when i am back to Malaysia. In short, incredible structure, history and scenery.
4. The feeling is awesome, i mean to come to a bnew place with a memory. Having came to Cambodia before during the university days for social service in the Kampot Province, Kampong Kehs; the memory awaken as i step foot to this country. The same old airport, the outlook of the country and the people of Cambodia.
5. This time around is different as i will be travelling to the enormous Tonle Sap and the awesome Angkor Wat. I am travelling with my old friend Chee Jian, well it was only two of us; of course i think that with more people in the party it will be merrier; but the reality that we all area facing is, it is harder now to organize the time to fit into everyone's priority and schedule.
6. Those were the days that we went to Krabi, Bangkok, and Krabi. This year, if you are asking me why do I come to Cambodia, it is for holiday for sure, but also a try for me; to travel with companion other than my Uni mates.
7. Times had changed so much and i need to be sure that i am also growing wiser and better in the sense of maturity, and independent-wise. This will surely be a turning-point in my life so far. Setting my eyes beyond the future of next two years when i am turning 30; there are things to be achieved, to be done.
8. Well, there are still some days to enjoy before the hell really start again next sunday when i am back to Penang. Why not just try to enjoy, and get a good vacation before turning my gear up next week?
9. Get a life, Kit Leong, Get a life~

The Fight is Still On

1. It's been a while since i last posted. Well, finally it is the time. Two assignments done, another two is work in progress. One test and then finally the long awaited holiday.
2. It is sort of like crazy, to work in the morning, then continue working on assignment at night. Weekends classes and more work to do then.
3. Soon, my first semester as a MBA student will be all over. One more final exam after this holiday then it will be the period to wait for the final result.
4. Currently there's many things to be done yet. Focus must be intact, work must be consistent as the fight is still on.
5. Live to the fullness, to the fullllll-ness

Pressure, Anxiety and Restless

1. The title summarized my feeling over this weekends. First there's two huge assignment due by 20th July 2013, one more due 27th July 2013. One last one i guess will be around the same date.
2. This actually accounts most of my pressure source. Another part which disturbed my feelings, and confident is the news of dropping MBA from my new friend Chua.
3. As things are turning to be more encouraging, and i had found a real friend whom i can trust and fight together, yet this news came like a lighting strike for me. It does shaken my believes and confident. Again my thoughts and actions are affected.
4. Nevertheless, i tried to gather myself once more, re-affirmed myself about the reason for me in persuing this course and the outcome i want in the future. I tried hard and i knew the road still running far ahead.
5. I had talked to Chua, hoping that he would change his mind. Telling him about sacrifices and choices that we had and ought to take. Anyhow i hope he can decides for what is best for him. For me, regardless how is Chua's decision, i will carry on without hesitation. My aim is clear, same goes to my conscience.
6. My I-Phone kept restarting last few days, out of frustration, and i had decided to purchase new flagship phone by Nokia. It is the Nokia Lumia 920 that i had chosen. After weeks of reading review, i had made this bold decision to try the very first Nokia in my life. 
7. Been pampered by good design concept by Apple, i hope Nokia will not fail my expectation. 
8. Back to my studies, it is high time for me to plan my daily life, to maximized the time during weekdays; as weekends are never enough for studies and doing assignment. I need to stay focus and have more discipline to carry out whatever task that i had planned. Yes, that is the only way, working consistently.