The Sixth Anniversary

1) Olympic was over, Mourinho is now ManU coach, Tan Sri Zety retired as our Bank Govenor and internal candidate has replaced her, Harlem Yu just got married again at the age of 55, the ownership structure of the company I worked changed just a month ago, I had finished my Master, and my parents are on their expatriate duty to Sibu (taking care of their granddaughter as my sister was posted there).

2) Many had changed over the end of last year till date. I cannot give a clear account on all the changes but one thing stay pure and true to the hearts, is my physical size, sadly or ashamely I am still on a XXL mode. Haha

3) It was my 6th anniversary today. The decision I made of shifting to Penang 6years ago. First question comes into my mind, have I ever regretted such decision? 6 years down the road, and what have I learn and come to experience?

4) It is no longer a question about regret or not, it is more about the outcome, the experience and the life lesson that I have learned which matter the most I supposed. So much had happened and I have aged as life events unfold in my life.

5) I learned to cherish life more, my family and friends. I has learned to be more understandable and understanding. I knew how to live in a solitude life without getting lonely, but undeniably I still need my friends and family in my life. I faced the demon side of myself with a more open heart, I seek to untangle myself within myself, the ever wanting and demanding self for attention and care, the insatiable sense of controlling over others. As a whole, try to take life not so seriously but yet in a very positive manner.

6) It may seems rather complicated as I put all the feelings I had into words, but the essence is separated into two part. The word "This too shall passed" and "The is-ness of life" summarized the first part. To be happy or to be able to experience any positive experience in life we have go with the flow of life but not the counter flow direction. The second part is about withdrew from judging others as well as self judging. Often times we use our own internal ruler to measure others, about what others should and shouldn't do or behave; much of the suffering arises as we deem others to be out of our own measurement or judgement. We expect or requires others to behave in a way we thinks it is a norm. Ironically the new norm is our own norm, the subjective norm. Hence, stop judging and measuring. Only then we will have true liberation and lightness in our life. As there will be no two identical people in this world, and even the twins also behave differently. Hence , stop judging and measuring. Even if we insisted to judge and measure others, deems others as ungrateful, useless, not worthy, or of no significance, does that actually change anything on the fact and event that already occured? No changes will happened as it was already past. Hence, stop judging and measuring.

7) I am blogging in Kaffa with live singing while waiting for my movie. It was such a relaxing and pleasure moment which I really cherish. The reality is subjective actually, depending how we want to perceive it and which side we want to accept it. Today I have decided that this moment is a great moment, a happy one despite spending it all alone but I have great music, comfortable environment, cute little kids running around me, a stunning gal sitting across my table (although her father is blocking some of my view), I had a fair fried rice and ice lemon tea, and I have a movie to catch up. I am contended to be able to perceive all of this and experience it now.