The INSATIABLE

1. This had always be my problem. I hated it when i feel it this way. It took over the control of my life before and i will not allow it to happen again.
2. Yet, what is most detrimental about having this feeling is having to aware of it and yet cannot contain it.
3. The insatiable need for attention and pledge of care and love from someone directly and indirectly; the thirst that can never be satisfied is a dead end which only leads to more suffering, destruction and devastation.
4. How can i knew it but yet still jumping into this deadly trap? How can i realized all the potential hazard and yet i indulge myself and allow it to control my life? How can such a logical things to do seems so uncontrollable which is so illogical as we are speaking of it ?
5. With more wants create more sufferings, by satisfying the unlimited wants will not feed satisfaction but instead further fuel up the insatiable needs. 
6. Ironically, it is so easy to stop this wishful thinking but simply stop thinking. If only there is this 'On' and 'Off' button in my mind. It means that i need to control my mind rather than the other way round. I and myself is not equals to me. I is not me. Dis-identifying from oneself is to liberate myself for the Ego version of I.
7. Inspired by The Power Of Now by Eckart Tolle.
8. Perhaps i need some real meditation camp to exercise more control on my mind.