Christmas + New Year Holiday

1. This year end break will be different one no matter what. Attending the funeral of my mom's Aunt a very close relative, reminded me on the uncertainties in life and how vulnerable we are. Not long after that, her husband who's in ICU also passed away. I thought he had lost his will to stay alive after hearing about loosing her wife. It is good to think that there's life after death, where both of them can accompany each other once more.
2. I had arranged a four days trip down to Singapore, staying at Suen Chi and Syn Yin's place. Well, appreciate their generosity and hospitality. My main aim this time to Singapore is to visit my friends and also checking up their life and lifestyle in Singapore. My aim very much achieved and i am glad to have made this trip.
3. Regardless of what other might think, i thought it was meaningful to know the life and surroundings of people who i care. I manage to met with Xuan and Small White and talk with them. To understand their daily routine, their neighborhood and surroundings, i am already very contended with it already. Although they have no time to show me around, and despite both are already sick, they still make it a point to meet me. I really do appreciate it.
4. I managed to have some talk with Suen Chi, to catch up with each other. It was a good chat, and again such chat is hard to come by these days. We need the right timing and person also a point in life where we get to meet once more. Her boyfriend is a good lad, and very friendly.
5. Also, i managed to join Syn Yin at her work place. Meeting her colleagues, visiting her workplace, and also some chat to catch each other up. It was fun and a memorable one. I know she was pretty busy as her boyfriend just returned from US yet she tried her best to spend some time with me.
6. We had visited nice coffee place and book shop in Tiong Bharu, visited Marina Bay, Golden Sand Casino and Garden by the Bay. It is a very high class place with nice view, recreational area for the whole family and relaxing. 
7. I had only visited the Marina area and Science center for this trip. What is more important is the moment i spent with my friends in Singapore. I am not sure what's in their mind,whether i am just a passerby in their life, or otherwise; but for me, i know this trip and the memory i gathered will be something special for me to be remembered for time to come.
8. One more good memories locked in my memory box.
9. After this, a new year will start. I need to brace myself once more for the forthcoming challenge. Another 1.5 to 2 years for me to get ready; to start a new challenge and new phase in life. 
10. What is my direction and plan for the next 3 years, and 5 years ? What is the achievement in sight? Which area that i need to be really focused in ? What is the core values that i perceived and holding on firmly? How about my past memory, can i really handle it and let it go? How long will it takes for me to let go or i still choose to avoid it ?
11. I need guidance, i need plan, i need care and i need support. I have to be strong, i have to be bold, i have to be open and i have to be disciplined.
12. At a solitary state, on a lonely path; i can do with more care and support. No one else, but only me can be that 100% supporter for myself. Everyone with their own agenda, their own life to take care of, no one can always be there for me. Only me, and down to me on this path, a solitary path.