2) I felt weaker actually, everytime after coming back Penang from KL. Seems like I need to re-adapt and re-experience everything again.
3) During the training last week, i felt really positive and energized for my work and future. A positive outlook with you means a lot for me.
4) Its really a test from GOD. My work and life went a level up. This is not the first time I felt stress over the demands and expectation from my uncle. If I have a choice, I will prefer to work in a more positive and encouraging environment. Maybe itis up to me to create this if it is not given. I had talked myself over about this, I need to create this.
5) Probably because of this, I reallized other things also went wrong. I was getting more sensitive.
7) I am getting more demanding and selfish than usual. I had became very restless and paranoid.
8) Eversince I moved here, I realized the DOWN time where I felt restless and sad was lesser. Perhaps I starts to let go more things and learned to see things from different angle. Or maybe I starting to love myself more.
9) There were a few things I still cannot let go. I am learning and I am trying. I know the effort is not enough. I hate it when I feel and experience this negative feeling. Like loosing myself, my value and my life.
10) Perhaps I have put her too high up in my priority and she never regards me as high as I do. Perhaps she felt that she's busy with things that she might have neglected me. Maybe there were things that is more important at that times.
11) There's no hatred. Only love involved. If this is love, then I must wish her and pray for her happiness and wellness. By doing this, maybe I will feel calm and fullfilled my destiny to take care of her.
12) I need a break. For me to readjust myself. To recharge myself. Yes I need to face this challege. The only way I can breakthrough my life.
Location:Lorong Kikik 2,Perai,Malaysia
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