Things That I Don't See

1. This upcoming few weeks will be a roller-coaster ride for my mood. My notice period working in ENVIROGARD SDN BHD is up till this friday 13-5-2010.
2. Questions on when to move there? When to go for a short vacation in Singapore? When to pack things? etc etc .... i only want to think about it after that notice period.
3. I am carrying a lot of negative feeling with me now. Been worried and sad, been paranoid and been frustrated. Leaving here i can only foreseen negativity but i still wants to leave here.
4. I told myself not to think so much, yes indeed i didn't. Just that, my hearts still felt heavier than usual, same goes to my mind.
5. From my usual perspective, i could only foreseen loneliness there. Doing things all alone, spending the weekends alone, eating alone just all alone. I was worried at times that i had made a wrong decision by leaving here.
6. My conscious told me to move on, cause that's the path i need to go through to be able to learn to live for myself. The learn the true meaning of happy life. To be able to live for myself, live by myself and most of all love myself.
7. I didn't foreseen that, this will be a brand new start for my life.
8. I didn't foreseen that, this will be a chance for me to let go the pass.
9. I didn't foreseen that, this is the time for me to learn and grow up.
10. I didn't foreseen that, this is the time for me to prove my worth.
11. I didn't foreseen that, finally is time to put my dream into reality.
12. I wish to have a holiday whenever possible, a regular one, to increase my exposure and experience life.
13. I wish to be efficient and effective in work, to be able to contribute and competent in area of work.
14. I wish to have a more stable working life, so i can plan out my work, my leisure and my life properly.
15. I wish to work hard on my short and long term goal. A period of time where i really work hard for myself and my future.
16. I wish to have my another partner of life, to share my life with.
17. I wish to spend quality time with my parents and siblings to have family vacation with them.
18. I wish to have change to go on a day trip or short trip with my bunch of friends to interesting places, it will be better if it is annual one.
19. So i need to train my mind, to learn to see from the angle i don't usually sees.
20. So i need to stay focus, on different parts of my life, not only relationship.
21. So i need to put my words into action, to draw out the guide lines i need to follow, step by step towards my dream.
22. So i need to walk the talk. Be genuine and authentic to myself.
    
23. So i need to start loving myself and be positive.
24. and so, that's what i should do from now on.